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Hi there [02 Jun 2013|11:22pm]

Hi, My name is Jenn. I'm 23 years old and I've been trying to lose weight for the last year or so. I got down to 133lbs and couldn't seem to get any lower than that. Since then i've gained about 17lbs and I'm really worried because I can't seem to stay on track and keep myself motivated.
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hi [11 Jan 2011|03:10pm]
 Hi I'm new to this community. I'm full chinese and my name is Meili and I just recently turned 15. I am in the 10th grade. The heaviest I have ever weighed recently was 58.9 kg (130 lbs) and the lightest I weighed recently was 45 kg (about 100lbs). I never really thought about weight until my mother started making comments about my weight in 9th grade. I have always had a high metabolism and I used to eat so much food and never gain a pound. I was always underweight my entire life until 9th grade. I was about 5'5'' and 100 lbs in the beginning of 9th grade. I know that is underweight for BMI but that is just how my body is. There was lot of drama in my life during the 9th grade and suddenly I started gaining weight. At first I was happy because I was finally not the skinny girl in class, but I started worrying when my weight gain was not stopping. By the middle of 9th grade I had gone from 45kg to 53kg (from 100lbs to 120lbs). I started feeling fat. By the end of 9th grade, I had my first relationship with this guy I knew for a while. I remember it all hit me one day when I was talking to him casually and somehow that topic of weight came up. I didn't say anything about my weight but I found out that he was 49kg (about 110lbs) and 5'8''. I know that sounds really skinny but he has high metabolism too and he eats ALOT. At that moment I felt like a pig because he was about 10lbs lighter than me. I knew I had to do something so thats when I started dieting. At first I just started eating more fruits and veggies. It helped and I got down to 110 lbs again. But I started getting obsessed with weight and I started starving myself. Yes. I was diagnosed with anorexia. Ever since then, weight has been a struggle. As I started going to therapy, I started gaining weight again and got up to 130 lbs. I was shocked and scared. I felt so fat. Later my boyfriend broke up with me and I think it was because I was getting so fat. :( Right now I'm about 125lbs but I want to get back down to 110lbs. I know that sounds really unhealthy but my body burns fat really fast. I'm just having a hard time trying to loose weight because I know how much trouble it got me into earlier. Help anyone? Support?
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[20 Jun 2010|01:30am]
 We're two fifteen year old girls. 
Both of us are sick of feeling bad about out bodies and trying to hid them.
We're trying to loose weight by the end of this summer. 
We weight 131ish and 140ish. 
Getting down to around 115ish would be perfect but it's saying focused on loosing weight. 
If anyone has tips or wants to email about trying to lose weight, tell :) 
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[10 Nov 2008|08:54pm]

Heyyy!! Haven't been on in awhile... Taylor's the name.. lol
So big news, good news, sad news, and angry news. Hah.
Big news, I'm finally 14 since mid-October.. pretty cool.
Good news, I might be getting a laptop for Chirstmas, so I can finally be in private.
Sad news, I can't lose a damn pound. I'm like 122 now... UGH It sucks cause school is my excuse. And sports.
I feel like I'll faint if I don't eat when I play bball. Ugh. I used to fast all the time!! What happened???!!
Angry news- My best (boy) friend totally stabbed my back and made me cry in front of my whole class...
Here's how it went,
Me- ALEX wtf, why did you call me busted???
Alex- I didn't! I just said that you were ok, which is not bad, but not great.
UGH! The reason why that pissed me off, is cause he used to call me beautiful, and sexy, and pretty. Now this new, skinny bitch came
and ruined my life. I must be too fat or something....
I try and try, but somehow, I'm never.....
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New Girl! [27 Oct 2008|07:42pm]

I just joined so I guess I better introduce myself :) I'm calling myself Amaya on here, but its technically a fake name, I thought I'd better be honest about that!

My eating disorder isn't about losing weight or anything, its actually the complete opposite. I eat loads when I'm stressed, angry, sad or just bored and once I start I can't stop. I've been trying for the last year or so to control it and have decided the best way is to lose the weight I put on through it from last year (mostly exam related) so I can feel like I have a bit self discipline and maybe put a stop to the bingeing if I can. At the moment I'm attempting to keep my calories under 1500 and after slacking a bit I'm aiming more for the 1000 mark so any support you can offer will be gladly accepted and returned, if you want :)
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New Comer [23 Oct 2008|08:10pm]

Hi, I'm Kendra. I'm new here. I wanted to join, because I need some support, and lot's of people here on LiveJournal have great advice and are super nice.

So, I'll give you my stats first.

I'm 16 years old and my current weight is 110 lbs. My highest weight was 130 and my lowest weight, not including when I was younger and only weight 65 lbs, was around 110-ish.

I don't have an eating disorder, my I'm worried that I might be becoming weight obsessed. I literally get on the scale everyday more than once. I get on in the morning, after I eat breakfast, after I go to the bathroom, when I get home from school, after I eat lunch, and before I go to bed. My mom's worried I might be getting weight obsessed and my aunt's also worried about me. They're both great people, I don't want to disappoint them. But, I can't explain this sudden urge to drop the pounds. My appetite has just dropped.

I've become concerned with how many calories I eat, checking the labels all the time. I never used to.

I don't purge or binge (that's bad).

So yeah, can anybody give me some love and support?
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Newbie [23 Oct 2008|05:04pm]


Hello there;

I'm new to the community and to Live Journal. I was never diagnosed with having an eating disorder; but if you aren't eating and working out lots; I suppose you have one; But I always have felt the opposite.

Anyway; my scale is MIA- I need to get a new one. This weekend.

I am married; no children.. I do have an awesome dog.

The highest weight I had been was 210 pounds; lowest was 135; my frame made me look thinner than what it sounds.

I'm feeling my close to my heaviest.

I really miss the days where bones are sharp and my belly was flat..

I could blame that getting married has done this, but the blame is on me. I got caught up in going to parties and as I got older, the weight would pile on and stay.

I truly believe that whatever anyone wants to lable it never leaves. I've dealt with weight and food for 20 years; I'm 30 now.

When I look at myself; it makes me feel sick; to sit down and see rolls sitting on my body- that can't continue to happen.

Anyway, my journal is public; I'm always looking for online support- I can offer you the same motivation.

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New :) [06 Oct 2008|08:56pm]

Hey guys :) I'm new to this community. I'm 20 and completely unhappy with the way I look.

CW: 160
HW: 165
LW: 140
GW1: 150
GW2: 140
GW3: 130

After my ex and I split a year and a half ago, I found my comfort in food, and haven't stopped eating since. I continue to eat, even when I'm feeling full. I've often tried working out and such to try to lose the pounds, but I think now I'm going to try restricting alot more and fasting a few times a week. I'm so ready to change my appearance because I HATE the way I look.

I'll be on here very often giving updates and looking for support, it'd be great to have your guyses help!! :)
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[09 Sep 2008|04:25pm]


pics of all of them!Collapse )

seeing as how they are about $10-$15 in stores I'm looking to sell them for $6-$8 depending on how many you get at once. we can always talk about the price!

thank you!

its good to set goals in all aspects of your life, this could be a nice little reward for yourself when you reach them. What a way to get a flat stomach and have a reward to look forward to! rewards ALWAYS work for me!

e-mail KDukesHubbard@yahoo.com
aim lildevilgurl172

best way to get a hold of me :) maybe easier to talk about it on there too.
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[04 Sep 2008|03:10pm]

I havent ate in four days and it feels amazing that ive kept up my diet.I was sooooooo dizzy yesterday that i could hardly move.
My starting weight was :139-140
now im 132
pretty kewl. i lost about 7-8 pounds this week. i know as the weight starts to melt off my weightloss will slow down.
im not knew to this man.
but im gonna go all the way.!
anyone wanna join me>?
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newbie [03 Sep 2008|10:51pm]

Hey I'm new to this site and live journal. im here cos i wanna and reeeli need to loose weight, like a lot, atleast 40 lbs and i was wanderin if anyone is also knew here or not, and wuld like to like do the sme.
also dus ne1 have any good advice for me, any is welcome.
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im not sure how this works [03 Sep 2008|08:08am]

[ mood | bored ]

Im new and still very confused about how to post things and stuff like that. But anyhow, I spent this ENTIRE summer pigging out im so disgusted with myself. Last i knew i weighed 115 and thats 9lbs more then i weighed a year ago! disgusting! Im terrified to know how much ive packed on since. School starts tommrow and im going to go to the nurse and ask them to tell me my weight since i dont own a scale (my mom REFUSES to buy me one). I pretty much got by today on a handful of goldfish crackers and hot tea UNTIL dinner came around but  i only ate ONE regular sized portion. Im proud of myself for knowing when to stop.(Praying i dont night snack!!!) I hope i can keep this up. Im planning to go on an all water fast for the weekend, (Sat+Sun) , anyone doing anything similar/ want to join me?

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Tips??? [27 Aug 2008|06:33pm]

[ mood | disappointed ]

 Ok, so about 2 weeks ago I was fasting pretty good and lost like 5 pounds, but now I have gained it all back! So I'm like 120-122!! It SUCKS. 
I don't know why this is happening!! I keep fucking breaking my fasts... I need some tips and some distraction. 
Plus, there is a new girl that is way skinnier than me, I wonder how SHE does it... hmm... 
Sometimes I am just a ...

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[04 Aug 2008|10:24pm]
 Hi, Im new on here and i would really like a friend that i can talk to and lose weight with.

Im 19 years old.

My weight gain really started when i went to college. Im from a small town and being at college really made me feel insignificant. But eating made me feel better. Now it makes me feel like a pig. I know im like morbidly obese now. Thats why i want someone who i can talk to and be accountable with and cool with. I used to eat to fill myself but no more. I would really like help and any suggestions would be greatly appreciated. Any takers?
Please help!

-dying from fat and wanting to be invisibly thin
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i need HELP!! [30 Jul 2008|11:17pm]

Hi im ellie. im 18. &  A SIZE 12!!!
My friends all have brillaint figures although i love them to bits i am very envious of them!
For the last 2 Yrs i have been very picky about what i eat, but nothing seems to happen. But recently over the last 4 months i have felt physically sick when i think of meals!  i became a veggie 4 yrs ago as then i was in control of my diet but that doesn't seemt to be working!
All of my girlies say to me that i have a lovely curvy body! CURVY they mean FAT! 
over the last few months i have been getting very depressed when it comes to going out with my girlies as they look so fab and i look FAT!  At the moment i refuse to go out with them! due to having no self confidence due to my size!
 I NEED HELP! i need to loose weight now!  well no actually i just want to be VERY skinny!
some mornings i wake up look in the mirrow and think well i actually look relativley  ok, then i go to my Boyfriends and think how the hell did i think that! 
I refuse to eat out or around anyone i don't feel confident around! which is actually literally everyone other than my mum & dad!
i need to get skinny NOW there is no time for being fat ot is just getting me depressed !!  sometimes i actually feel MANIC i can't do anything to click out of it either 
i need ways to loose wieght now! i want dramatic changes please i need ur help!! 
Thanks u
X X X 
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..IM NEW =D [15 Jun 2008|07:33pm]

well im new and thought id introduce my self..
my name is chrystie. im 19 ..and i'm a girl lol
so i guess ill explain my situation. =)
well ive been overweight for most of my life, my highest was 195lbs(eww)  and my lowest , at age 17, was 144lbs (yay)
well ive gone up and down since then, and just got off Jenny craig. im  151 at the moment, but probably a lot more right now being that i ate so much this weekend. i LOVE food..im not going to deny it..i juss feel like i gain it easier than others. i do like working out...but i get lazy sometimes.
anywho (im rambling lol)
i made a promise to myself that this summer i would work hard to get thin. EVERYONE makes fun of me because of my weight...and its so annoying. but im not doing this for anyone, im doing this for myself, i want to be happy!!!!!!!
i need support
and im ready to support you guys too
so back to the gym tommorow...i want to be THIN

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hey :] [15 Jun 2008|04:40pm]

[ mood | cheerful ]

hey everybody im looking for fasting buddies for the next week. i know i wont succede unless i have some people to fast with. hopeing not to let anyone (mainly myself) down.  today im going to camp so it should be easy not to eat nasty camp food. i might get away with just cutting up my food so my friends wont realize i wont be eating any of it. also what are you thoughts on lax? ive been meaning to try them but ive gotten mixed reviews. some say they work and some say they dont. so im not really sure

what are your thoughts?
keep up the good work!

<3 to be thin

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Ahhh stressful day! [13 Jun 2008|02:41pm]

[ mood | grumpy ]

i went home this week and iv just come back from uni and found out that i put on 6lbs!!! that pissed me off so im starting a new diet of having just 2 of those 10calorie soup things a day. one for lunch and one for dinner for 2weeks. but then i got home and found out that the kitchen was an absolute mess and we move out in a week and get charged if we leave without cleaning it. so i cleaned EVERYTHING. i had the day off and just blitz. i thought if i focus on cleaning i wont think about eating. big mistake. some one had left out biscuits and i couldnt help myself. i had to have 3. im trying to stay under 100 calories a day for 2 weeks to get rid of those 6lbs i put on in 4 days. ekkk.  and the very first day i eat 220 instead. not good. well at least the kitchen is clean. my flat mate came in and was like " wheres my stuff gone" and i i was like " iv cleaned it and put it in a spare cupboard cos you guys are pigs" and he stormed out. ummm a thanks would have been nice. i slaved for 3hours to clean the kitchen!!!

ahhh venting helps, im off for a run, i need to work off those biscuits!

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im so proud!! [06 Jun 2008|07:22pm]

[ mood | bouncy ]

im so proud of myself, i had the day off and decided to go for a cycle to a place called cambourne. i wasnt quite sure how far it was so i got my map and planned it all out. it ended up being just over 10miles. so there and back was 20miles. i even worked out my speed in which i was cycling and i hit 17mph. thats not the proud bit, i went onto fitday.com to record how many calories id eaten (29cals all day) and how many id worked off. I WORKED OFF 1661 CAL!!!!  in just that cycle and the best bit is it wont make me bulk up. im proud cos all iv eaten 2day because im on the rainbow diet is half a red pepper (16cals) and a piece of melba toast (13cals) so im happy as can be. 

the cycle really did me some good tho cos i got stood up last night again so i was miserable this morning! iv never had a problem with dates and finding guys but since iv come to uni iv dated one guy and been stood up 4 times in 2 months by 2 different guys. maybe its just the boys round here or maybe its me but to be honest im in such a good mood, i dont care. trust me tho, last night i was a mess on the phone to my mum and i almost told her about my ED by saying im not skinny enough because i havnt reached my goal yet. opps!! 

although on my adventures today iv realised my ED has progressed up a level. i used to just try and work of the calories id eaten and keep it pretty much balanced and not feel too guilty if i ate 200cals and worked off 300cals. but now i realise that every calorie i eat i feel ill and stupid and guilty which is rather depressing.

hope you all have a good night

love xx

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i dont understand... [04 Jun 2008|08:48pm]

[ mood | stressed ]

im so annoyed, my friends from work asked me to go bowling and drinking 2night at 5ish, its now 8.50pm and i still havent heard from them. i havent eaten anything all day so that i can replace the food calories with alcohol calories (i also feel slimmer in the morning if i dont eat and get drunk).

i dont want to wallow in my own self pity but its become a common occurence that my friends esp my flat mates ask me to go out and i get myself all hyped up and prepared by not eating so that i dont load all those extra calories on and then nothing happens and i end up sitting in my room playing music and going on the internet till late crying convinced that iv done something wrong to piss them off!!! 

i dont think im a horrid person to be with because i love my work and get on really well with them and my flat mates but i just dont understand why they say lets go out and then just dont!! if you make plans, stick to them.

oh well the good thats come out of this is that i havent eaten and therefore havent consumed any calories. i was just so looking forward to it and i even went for a 2hour cycle to burn off any guilty calories i would have consumed 2night.

im going stir-crazy in my room now, i hope they text to say they are going out, please text! (crosses fingers)

does anyone feel like this or am i just being pathetic?

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