Its math class, trigonometry. the teacher drones on about logs and multiplication but i am not paying attention. my mind has been consumed by death. beautiful death that i so desire it feels like i am on fire. my arms burn, craving the metal to be dragged across them drawing blood, beautiful crimson blood that drips drips drips onto bathroom tiles. its been a while since i have enduldged in such activities i think i deserve a trip to the crimson river it gives me shivers when the crimson river flows. its math class, trigonometry And the teacher drones on about logs and multiplication but all i want to do is die.
I am transient My darling Paper Town I am but a wisp of cloud Blown about by angerily whispering winds Something seeming virginal For when I am touched, I disappear I am the scent of roses and blood A scent of betrayal of trust The smell which keeps you awake Swooning with feverish nightmares and flashes of red I alone allow you to sleep I am the taste of strawberry wine, Which stained the lips of the woman you loved The night you first met I am the hunger, devouring your mind Seeking the answers, killing your soul I crave naught but the truth, though you won’t enjoy it I eat away at the most delicate pieces of your psyche I alone will allow you to rest I am the god that played on your fears, Wasted you away, Killed your children, Starved your wives, Sent your sons to war
When your left standing all alone in a world so cold and cruel. When you hear the serenade of a string quartet. When you hear the lullaby of true hearts. Will you think of me? When I'm down on my knees and you can't see me, will you think of me? When your left standing alone in this cruel world come find me, come into my arms, into my heart when you've hurt your last, come find me. When your scared when your down and out, when you've strung yourself out from rolling too hard. When your standing all alone in a party, at a rave, in your classroom, at your job, in this cruel world, come find me, and I'll hold your hand. When you've been told that your lifestyle is wrong won't you think of me? How i treated you way too fairly. And now are you left standing? Isn't this life just like a cold dream? Can you still see me? Am I more to you than just a dream? You are all I have thought of all that I have pondered in the ramblings of this pretty mouth. When the loss is like a sea of despair, when the pain is like a gaping wound of what should've been But can this broken heart trully follow the stars? Your all this broken heart has wanted and yet you reject me like a passing thought. Think of me, think of the dreams that we have shared. For once I'm begging you on my knees. Let us relive the start, the times we swore we'd never part, your all I had wanted, all I wanted, all I dreamed of, all I felt so strongly in the dreams of the night. But it, but I wasn't enough, and I watched you depart. Leaving this heart saying "Please no more," Will you remember the times I held you in my arms and told you of my premonition that our passion would soon end, and that soon youd be just a memory as I paced the shower and cried. I fell asleep in your arms after we made love, now I'm asleep on my couch singing "All I wanted was you." Are you too far out there for me to find? Has life ever treated any soul fairly? Has reality? Now I'm the one thats out there being thrown to my knees. Its a crying shame that our passion is now a string symphony. A shame that our souls only united in one last time in a picture. And now Im so deep I think of my actions of every harsh word shpoken, I realize now that live giveth and taketh away so why tempt fate to take away with hate and judgemental words. If I could relive all of my starts would I remember to slow down and feel your heart? Your all I had ever wanted. When I had held your hand I had felt the hope of eternity. Shall we meet there after the pain love? Meet me there. But eternity isn't promised, happiness is not promised only the frivoulous pursuit but in the end we all die alone. Yes we all die alone. And my mind does amazing things and yet cannot muster the ability to show you my heart, to make certain you don't depart. So I'll pace my apartment a few times with my mind stuck in a cell of limited words and actions. And limited ability to make this work. But just like the struggling day moth tapping reapeatedly at your windowsill, to be free and happy, don't help my burdened soul save me now and give me a harshe start and bitter ending and when my wings stop fluttering and my eyes rest on the stars then stop and think that all my heart all my dying heart sings is "All I wanted was you."
Hi I just joined. I've just graduated from college and have dabbled in poetry for the last year. I usually try to make myself forget how lonely I am by writting poetry from a character's perspective. Most of my poetry has been from Fey, a dnd character's perspective. Below is a poem I wrote in an attempt to try using my loneliness, and write down what had been going on with me.
We laid vertically, across the horizontal bed. I stayed up half the night with you, reading Dickinson, Plath, and Sexton. Reading religiously, waiting to lend our lives.
I remember the way you smiled, and how warm it felt into my soul. I can still feel your kisses, and your laugh, resounding in my mind. I miss you.
Together, we decided. Nothing is really worth this. Together, we bought it, and I laid up back in my bed. Opening our Bibles again, we read and analyzed until exhaustion set in.
I placed the drink on my tongue, and felt the metallic taste, like blood, rise again and again my mouth. I kissed you a million times, each time spilling the metallic warmth into you. Repetitively, kissing and drinking, unto you fell asleep.
Alas, I slept too, and woke to neon hues of life. What? The metallic taste still burns on my tongue. And as I hold your milky hand tonight for the last time, I can’t fathom why this worked for you and not me?