Summary: Hankyung has a crush on Changmin
Pairing: Hankyung/Changmin and many more
Disclaimer: do not own them.
Warning-Unbetad, but I used Microsoft Word’s check
Dedication to followurdestiny
I'm so fucking screw, I'm going to be killed. I need, to get over these crazy feelings. Since
when everyone finds out about my feelings. Then I'm a dead man, I'm dead man walking. So
fucking dead, I should run back to China. Then I'll hide in China, for the rest of my life.
So if, no one knows where I am. Then no one can causes me, a slow painful death. Which is
going to be coming to me. When everyone finds out the truth. That evil truth which will lead
to my death. Well maybe I should fake being straight. Then I can just lie about my feeling.
So plan A is, to find some random girl to date. So then everyone can't accused me of
anything. And if my amazing plan A is a totally fail. Then I'll go to plan B. Which is me,
running away to China. Yes hiding in China will be the perfect plan. And a big plus, is that
I get to see my parents. Well maybe, I should stop over thinking everything. Since I guess,
that since no one knows my feelings yet. Or at least, I'm hoping that no one knows. I really
have been trying to keep it a secret. My secret is, that I'm in love with Changmin. Yes,
Changmin the baby of DBSK. So that is why everyone is going to kill me. why did I have to
fall in love with him. There are so many difference between us. Also I know that I never
going. To be good enough for him. Changmin is this beautiful perfect angel. While I on the
other hand, is some nobody. So this is why, all I can really do. Is just write in this
journal about him all the time. And also I love cooking for him. He just haves the cutest
looks on his face. When he takes a bit of something. There is just this amazing look of
pleasure. Aaah, I need to stop thinking about him. Before my thoughts become something dirty.
Which would be so very wrongful. I need to remembered, that Changmin is young sweet innocent
angel. He is just so perfect in every way. So there is no way, that we could be together.
There are way too many things, that would work against us. There is the major issue, that
Changmin doesn't like me. Even if Changmin did like me back. We would have so many problems
to deal with. First issue, is the age difference between Changmin and I. I am just so much
older than Changmin. Then since I am, so much older than Changmin. I'll have the DBSK family
after me. Especially Mommy Jaejoong, he is going to kill me. Mommy Jaejoong is so protective
of his babies. And Changmin is, his youngest baby. So Mommy Jaejoong is always on the war
path. If ever someone wants to try and tainted his baby Changmin. Then of course, I can't
forget about Daddy Yunho. Daddy Yunho will just beat the crap out of me. So first Mommy
Jaejoong will cut me up, with kitchen knives. Then Daddy Yunho will beat the crap of me, or
what is left of me. Then I'll have to also worry about my own group too. It just seem, that
everyone was in love with Changmin. Since everyone was just so protective of him. Even Super
Junior would save Changmin, before they would save me. But hey that doesn't bug me at all. I
would do anything to make sure, that Changmin is safe. So what I really need to do. Is I need
to forget about this crazy one-sided love for him. I just need to forget all about love. Or
just find someone, that I can love instead. Well since I really want someone to love. I guess
that I just need to find someone new. Well technically someone who can love me back. I know
that Changmin will never love me back. So it's time, to find someone new. I'll give my love
to someone, who will love me back. However first, I'll bake some of Changmin's favorite
cookies. Changmin just absolutely loves those cookies. Whenever I bake my yummy homemade oreo
cookies. I always bring some for DBSK's family. The look on Changmin face, it's just
priceless. So I'll bring them, a few dozens cookies just for him. It will be the last time,
that make the cookies for him. Because that look on him face, it just way too much for me.
With that wonderful sweet smile of his, it make me love him more. So just this one last time.
Before I give up my love for Changmin. So I'm off to the kitchen to make cookies for my
Changmin. Oh shit, I just didn't write my Changmin. Aah I am so damn screw. It's going to be
harder, then I thought to give up Changmin. But Journal, somehow I will forget about my
feelings for Changmin. Even it's the last thing I do.
P.S. Journal, I just wanted to write it one last time. I, Hangeng am in love with Changmin
I hate my life so much at the moment. Everything in my life, it just sucks at the moment.
Well my dear Journal, my life is terrible. Because my journal, I am madly deeply in love. And
you think that being in love. That it's such a wonderful damn amazing thing. However who the
hell, ever say that, was a damn fool. Love have to be the dumbest thing in the world. Love
makes us, all just morons. Why journal why am I putting love down. I'm putting down stupid
love, since the one. That I am so fucking love with. He will never love me back. And why
would he love someone like me. The person that I'm in love with, he is just perfect. When he
walks in the room, everything just seem better. Also I love when he smiles at me. I wishes
that I could see him more. Since he is in a different group. I hardly ever get to see him. So
that is another reason why love bites. Sometime, I almost wish that I was in Super Junior. So
I would get to be with him more. However don't get me wrong, I love being in DBSK. Well at
least, I received one good piece of news. That Heechul, Donghae and Hankyung are coming over.
So I want to look good for my crush. And I only have thirty minutes until they come. So I'm
off, to get ready. I'll write more about the one I love next time