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02 November 2008 @ 05:07 pm
Super Junior; KangChulMi; Jealousy  
Title: Jealousy
Fandom: Super Junior
Pairing: KangChul/ChulMi/KangMi
Word Count: 1,377
Rating: NC-17
Summary: Zhou Mi and Heechul have a different relationship. Heechul doesn't see the other side.
Genre: Smut/Angst(?)
A/N: So i was in a slump lately (i even wrote a journal entry entitled "slump") and i couldnt write fics or sit down long enough to read them and i was just being weird. But i read a fic that spurred my creativity and now im back, writing and reading and everything is okay for now. I know the pairing seems random, but if you read it it all kinda makes sense why i chose who...anyways, i hope you DO read it :) ugh. i should be doing a study guide....

(P.S. the beginning i took liberty with, in the sense that Zhou Mi has known Heechul not just before Super Junior but before SM, too. I wrote them in school together, he's a transfer student, i guess...idk but its not a major plot point so dont worry about it)

Zhou Mi had always been jealous of Heechul. He was awkwardly cute. Heechul was awkwardly fabulous. He had the wide goofy smile that people cooed over. Heechul had the smile that stopped people, men and women, in their tracks. He couldn’t learn the Wonder Girl’s dances. Heechul could (surprisingly) learn all of them and more. He collected cute, girlish items. Heechul collected cute, girlish fans. He had a loud, happy laugh. Heechul had a loud, charming laugh. They did almost everything the same.

And yet Heechul picked up fangirls left and right, and Zhou Mi picked up “Only 13” comments on his cyworld.

Zhou Mi had always been jealous of Heechul. Before SM, Heechul had better grades. Heechul was popular in school. Heechul wasn’t good at sports, but wasn’t ever teased for it. Heechul was class president. Heechul was the teacher’s favorite. Heechul didn’t come to school, and everybody worried. Heechul spoke, and everybody listened. Heechul led, and everybody followed.

Zhou Mi had always been jealous of Heechul.

But Zhou Mi and Heechul had always been friends. Heechul called him Seasoning, and he called Heechul ridiculous. Heechul came over to his house after school, and Zhou Mi stayed the night over at his.

Heechul was accepted into SM entertainment, and so was Zhou Mi. And that was the one time when Zhou Mi wasn’t quite so jealous of him.

Zhou Mi and Heechul always had a different relationship. They were friends, but after awhile they started to touch. After awhile, they started to kiss. After awhile, they started to fuck. It didn’t matter who was on top or who was on bottom, as long as they were getting off, they didn’t care. Their relationship was always different. Heechul liked their relationship. Zhou Mi said he did too.

After Super Junior formed, Heechul had always had a thing with Kangin. Zhou Mi saw the way he would smack him on the shoulder, Kangin retaliating with a punch to the arm that had Heechul whining and howling about it for days, even though everyone knew he was perfectly fine. He saw the way Kangin would laugh at Heechul’s snarky comments, how he would never get mad at the tantrums or the outbursts of bitchiness, only pretend to. Zhou Mi saw Heechul roll his eyes and call Kangin stupid, then turn around and feed his ego on some talk show while pretending he was mocking him. He saw him fold his legs across his lap whenever they rested on the sofa together, poking him and prodding him and insisting that he just wanted to annoy him, when everyone knew he just wanted to touch him. Zhou Mi saw Heechul slink past Kangin’s door at night, and saw Kangin slide past Heechul’s the next.

Zhou Mi was fine with it. Heechul and him had stopped sleeping together a while ago. It never really ended, technically, just faded away in some silent agreement. Their relationship never suffered, never strained. It stayed the same as if they were still in school, before the touches and the kisses and the moans in the dark. It stayed the same: blended laughs, ease, insecurities, and friendly competition.


Heechul likes Kangin. He never tells him this, but since they’ve already been sleeping together for three months, he figures he already knows (even though he knows Kangin can be incredibly dense at times). Heechul likes Zhou Mi. He’s a great friend, loyal, sweet, silly, and Heechul can be as insane around him as he wants.

Heechul never tells Zhou Mi he’s started seeing Kangin, because they’ve started holding hands around the group members and Eeteuk covers Ryeowook’s ears whenever Heechul says something suggestive and there are suspicious pictures being analyzed into oblivion all over the internet and Heechul knows that Zhou Mi has probably figured it out by now. Heechul knows Zhou Mi doesn’t mind, because their relationship is different, their relationship isn’t like that, with hurt and backstabbing and jealousy.

Heechul is happy with Kangin.


Kangin tends to drink a little too much sometimes. Heechul has always told him he’ll get himself into trouble one day, but Kangin rolls his eyes like every other time Heechul tries to give people advice on their lives.

Zhou Mi likes to cook. He cooks all sorts of stuff, like Chinese and Korean and some sketchy-looking things that make the others exchange worried glances. Zhou Mi has gotten in the habit of cooking late at night, when most of the members have gone to bed. Heechul warns him he’ll get fat if he eats before bed, and Zhou Mi just shrugs and smiles and Heechul just shrugs and goes to sleep.


Kangin is drunk, and something is crawling up his body slowly. He panics a little in his drunken stupor, thinking that it may be a giant squid, because that could totally happen all the time, until he feels a long fingered hand press on the top of his thigh warmly and he calms a little. He peers up from where he’s on the floor against the wall limply, trying to see through the dark, even though the kitchen is brightly lit. Okay, so maybe he does drink a little too much. The blurry face in front of him has a wide smile and short, dark hair in it’s eyes and Kangin feels relief, smiling as the hand on his thigh rubs the thumb in a small, soft circle over his jeans just like Heechul loves to do.

He gasps as the hand on his thigh moves higher, pressing the pad of the thumb on the inside of his thigh, dangerously close to his growing erection, and Kangin can feel the warm body slink up his torso. His smile pulls at the side of his mouth teasingly, lopsided, as a kiss is pressed to his lips, a tongue darting out to sweep along the bottom, the thumb pressing harder, higher.

“Heechul, stop teasing…” Kangin groans out.

Heechul seems to comply, and Kangin is amused because he apparently wants this more than he does, because Heechul generally doesn’t give in so easily. His zipper echoes in the kitchen and long fingers ease their way past, slipping under the waistband of his boxers.

Kangin doesn’t remember passing out, he only remembers feeling rather sated, full with late night food, beer, and soju, and he remembers the light feeling of falling before nothing. And now he’s getting some. Excellent.

A tight heat surrounds his cock and he lets out a thick moan. Two hands press themselves on his chest, the thumbs rubbing small circles again, this time over his nipples. Kangin reaches up and grips the thin hips in front of him, fingers digging in hard enough to leave bruises, and he tosses his head back as Heechul moves. Kangin can feel his breathing getting heavier, hear the pants echo in the kitchen, even though he tries to keep as quiet as possible, because the other members are sleeping. Heechul doesn’t seem to care about being quiet or discreet though, moaning and whimpering louder than usual as he rides Kangin fast and hard. Kangin bucks up, hands in fists at his side on the cold kitchen tile with nothing to grab onto. Heechul bounces in his lap, faster, faster, thighs clenching on the side of him, hands clenching on his chest, body clenching around him. Kangin throws his head back and moans, his chest heaving, eyes squeezed shut as he gets nearer and nearer. Kangin can’t hear the footsteps coming down the hall.

Heechul stands in the doorway to the kitchen, shock and hurt and sadness carved into his beautiful features. His mouth is slightly open as he surveys the scene in front of him, takes in the source of the moans that woke him from a blissful sleep and brought him padding out of his room into a nightmare. He’s barefoot, but he can’t feel the cold tile on the soles of his feet. His arms hang limp at his sides. He chokes back a soft, sad, sob.

Zhou Mi looks over his bare shoulder, looks back at Heechul from where he sits in Kangin’s lap, and there’s triumph in his eyes.

Zhou Mi has always been jealous of Heechul.

Started/Finished: 11.02.08

**ahaha so by all the comments ive been getting, i dont think i cleared it up properly: Heechul and Zhou Mi just kinda did each other for the hell of it, they werent really in a relationship beyond friendship, and they both decided to stop sleeping together. So no, Heechul did not ditch Zhou Mi.

this kind of jealousy = bad
Current Location: my dorm
Current Mood: accomplished
Current Music: none
lovely_tatsuha on November 2nd, 2008 11:38 pm (UTC)
good for you Zhou Mi you play it right
sorry heechul but you can’t keep having every thing

i love it ^_^
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 2nd, 2008 11:43 pm (UTC)
lol you condone it??

it was supposed to be sympathy for chul XD
but thats okay, everyone gets something different out of everything!

thanks for reading :)
Jishujishu on November 2nd, 2008 11:47 pm (UTC)
wow..I love it...especially the last line...it fits into everything!
I like Zhoumi's character here~ ♥
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 2nd, 2008 11:54 pm (UTC)
thank you!!

im glad it all fits ^_^
and everyones siding with Mimi XD
There's no obvious, rational form for sadness...: Bullshit-Optimusmardigrasmaven on November 2nd, 2008 11:52 pm (UTC)
Oh my... that was THE ultimate bitch move. So messed up! And Kangin doesn't even know he's screwing Mi!! Sad thing is... now Heechul does... that's bad. But this was good!
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 2nd, 2008 11:56 pm (UTC)
omo~ thank you

im glad you're rightfully indignant lol

and totally appropriate.
(no subject) - mardigrasmaven on November 3rd, 2008 10:19 am (UTC) (Expand)
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hiromireverokameorih on November 2nd, 2008 11:59 pm (UTC)
And yet Heechul picked up fangirls left and right, and Zhou Mi picked up “Only 13” comments on his cyworld. Haaa it hurts so much it's so good..

Jesus Holy Christ. Dude. Seriously. What. Have. You. Done. To. Me.

So twisted and OMG the happy image I had about these two is completely shattered right now DDDDD': I loved the way you added the KangChul moments, I've always had a thing for them <3

But t-this...;_____________________; why so cruel and wonderful. Omg. </3
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 12:24 am (UTC)

lol totally the effect i wanted

except i know, my happy image is shattered for a while too XD
and im like well now i have a bias against zhou mi over a fanfic that I WROTE lol thats...really really sad.

no </3 &hearts; instead!
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schm0useschm0use on November 3rd, 2008 12:07 am (UTC)



but like... wow. ALTHOUGH I AM SAD, this was majorly impressive.

luv uuu
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 12:10 am (UTC)
thanks babe

(lol that was purposeful ghei. since you are my husband, after all.)
(no subject) - schm0use on November 3rd, 2008 12:13 am (UTC) (Expand)
nishiara_hitominishiara_hitomi on November 3rd, 2008 12:25 am (UTC)
This was hot and broke my heart at the same time.


Seriously... Everyone had to some extend have something like that, and well girls would be girls idols would be thirdteen years olds females and Heechul would be Heechul, we all need to learn to live with that and Zhou Mi

But as your fic, oh so cleaverly shows... sometimes... destiny smile to the less fortunate so he can pwn the pretty bitch on his own game :D
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 12:45 am (UTC)
XDDD why does everyone think its good that mimi has seduced Kangin just to destroy Heechul's happiness??

lol but im glad you read
and im glad you liked!!

^__^ ♥
(no subject) - nishiara_hitomi on November 3rd, 2008 06:53 pm (UTC) (Expand)
(no subject) - holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 09:19 pm (UTC) (Expand)
亚历山德拉: heechul -> just a glancecrimsonetoile on November 3rd, 2008 12:37 am (UTC)
POOR HEECHUL ;____; It's not his fault that he's made of pure win ;__; HE DIDN'T DESERVE IT. Or maybe he did, considering how he dumped Zhou Mi who's a sneaky and revengeful bitch. mental note, never underestimate him :DDDDDDD He knew where to hit and Kangin's hopeless >_>

I love complicated relationships, this way of writing Zhou Mi and those 'touching episodes' of ChulMi. I wonder if there could be some warm feelings included? ;>

holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 12:48 am (UTC)
lol there are warm feelings!

i mean, there might not be after Zhou Mi fucks Kangin without his knowledge, but still...
lol well, the important thing to remember is that there were. XD

and it isnt heechul's fault! just because hes gorgeous and awesome and pure unbridled LOVE AND FAIL at the same time XD
my bias.
its showing.

thanks for the read :3
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ily_fosho: teukyumily_fosho on November 3rd, 2008 01:01 am (UTC)



lmfao. totally would've done the same thing 8DDDDDDDDDDDD.

BUT STILL. HEECHUL. i gotta admit that the kangin/heechul relationship isreally weird IRL. xDDDD like they can't stand each other but still like being around each other.
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 01:15 am (UTC)
lol yeah

the mindfucking...

i has got to stop putting it in my fics. XD

LOL AND IM SHOCKED AT YOU LYSA! (kinda sorta not really)
lol kangchul relationship = holyschmouse relationship XDDDD
(jk ;D)
(no subject) - ily_fosho on November 3rd, 2008 01:33 am (UTC) (Expand)
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baby_buggsbaby_buggs on November 3rd, 2008 01:20 am (UTC)
oooooohhhhhhh. i got it! XD took me a minute there. Loved it, cause, heechul, you can't have everything.
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 01:39 am (UTC)

totally opposite direction of where i was going but okay...
lalalafsquare on November 3rd, 2008 01:43 am (UTC)
awww.. my heechul .. and i'm not liking him in here 'cause i'm bias...

it's funny how lots of people are hating on Heechul.. LOLLLLLL

if both of them are agreeing on not being together-together.. then it doesn't mean that Heechul's breaking his heart or whatever.

It never really ended, technically, just faded away in some silent agreement.

their relationship isn’t like that, with hurt and backstabbing and jealousy.
so ironic.. and I like to think that Heechul just got fuck over not the other way around.

lalalafsquare on November 3rd, 2008 01:45 am (UTC)
meant to say "and i'm liking him in here but not just because i'm bias"
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mikkyboom on November 3rd, 2008 04:17 pm (UTC)
i know i'm supposed ot feel bad for rella but instead i'm hurting for mimi.
i'm such a horrible person, lmao.

and LOOK! i just wrote kangmi the day before and i thought i'd never see it ever (even if was just passing by in mention) but LOOK! kangmi smut of the angsty kind~ i'm so lucky. :DDD
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 3rd, 2008 04:37 pm (UTC)
its okay
a lot of people are on the Mimi train on this one XD

and i know! i read your kangmi
it was brilliant

its actually what inspired me to write again
(i hope you dont think it was in a copying sort of way cuz thats totally not my intention
the fic was just like BLAM *explodes in head*
sorry if you do think of it that way...)

did i comment?
i hope i commented...if not, ill go back and comment

because everyone loves comments ^o^b
kiirohanakiirohana_16 on November 6th, 2008 11:16 pm (UTC)
drunk kangin tsk tsk >.<

look what you did!

nooo dont cry heechul T_T

mim... evil mimi lmao >< this is different side

but wow nicely written XD
holykeebler216holykeebler216 on November 7th, 2008 02:21 am (UTC)
thank you :D