Well. I can tell you one thing.
Anyone that does still read these blogs, if you EVER need anyone to talk to, I'm almost always around. Even if I'm not, send me a message, and I'll be sure to help you in any way possible. I know how hard it can be to go through this alone. I've been there, and I can tell you that with time, it does get better. The urge never quite leaves you fully, but you learn to live with it, or find another outlet.
I SI'd for over 6 years of my life. I tried many different medications, therapy's, outlets, counselors, etc. I've been clean for over a year. It's hard. Some days are harder than others. You just have to remember, that anything is possible, and there are people out there that care, even if you don't realize it.
Only you can decide what is right for you, but I can help by sharing my experiences if anyone would like.
Be safe. <3