I started using livejournal a long time ago, and I found it helpful to share my stories in this community as I used to cut myself. It's been almost 6 years since I last cut, December 10th being my anniversary and I have to admit that I've come a long way. I used to bottle it inside me, all my hurt and pain. I seemed to internalize all the hurt, while I was only hurting myself by doing so. I decided to get a tattoo on my 4 year anniversary of not cutting, I tattooed the date of my last cut on my wrist so that I would never be tempted to do it again. Although I still struggle with the old emotions, I have found ways to express them without physically hurting myself.
I started cutting myself when I was 13, and I quit 3 years later due to extensive therapy, 2 hospitalizations, medication (which I'm glad to say I'm no longer taking, short after I quit cutting), and lots of support.
For anyone that still reads this and finds it in any way helpful, talk to someone. It really does help :)
Hello again from the Personality and Emotion Research Laboratory (PERL)!
Would you like to help us understand how to help people who self-harm? We are currently recruiting participants for the second phase of our research on self-harm, and we want your help! We are looking for people who have self-injured, whether you are currently trying to stop or not, to complete questionnaires every 3 months for one year to understand patterns of self-harm over time. Participating in the study takes 2 hours, and you will receive an online gift certificate worth $5 CAD for each time point you complete, plus a chance for a $25 bonus if you complete all the follow-ups over one year for a total of $50.
If you are interested in participating, please email us at firstname.lastname@example.org. All your information will be kept confidential, and no identifying information is linked to your responses.
Self-injury (sometimes called “self-harm”) involves harming yourself on purpose. Some examples include cutting or burning yourself, taking an overdose of pills, or banging your head. Right now, very little is known about why people start or stop self-harming. The Personality and Emotion Research Lab (PERL), a research team from Simon Fraser University in Canada, is conducting a study to learn more about the experiences of people who self-harm, and we want your help! We are interested in how emotions, life experiences, stress and coping styles affect self-harm. We hope that this research will help other people understand more about why people self-harm and what they can do to help.
What you can do:
If you want to participate in this study, you will fill out online questionnaires on self-harm, emotions, coping, symptoms, and life events. These questionnaires will take approximately 2 hour to complete. Later, you’ll have a chance to complete follow-up questionnaires over a 12 month period. Although the first session is long, the follow-up questionnaires are shorter, and usually take on 30 to 90 minutes to complete.
Who can participate:
We are looking for people who currently self-harm (whether you are trying to stop or not), AND those who have self-harmed in the past and quit.You must be at least 16 years old to participate.
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Simon Fraser University
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I'm a little upset by how much this community has died over the years. I've been a member for quite some time now, bouncing from journal name to journal name. Everyone use to be so active, sharing their stories, hopes, dream, fears, etc. It really made everyone feel as if they weren't alone in the world.
Well. I can tell you one thing.
Anyone that does still read these blogs, if you EVER need anyone to talk to, I'm almost always around. Even if I'm not, send me a message, and I'll be sure to help you in any way possible. I know how hard it can be to go through this alone. I've been there, and I can tell you that with time, it does get better. The urge never quite leaves you fully, but you learn to live with it, or find another outlet.
I SI'd for over 6 years of my life. I tried many different medications, therapy's, outlets, counselors, etc. I've been clean for over a year. It's hard. Some days are harder than others. You just have to remember, that anything is possible, and there are people out there that care, even if you don't realize it.
Only you can decide what is right for you, but I can help by sharing my experiences if anyone would like.
Be safe. <3
I just wanted to give everyone a big thank you for the great response on the documentary series that I'm working on! It's very inspiring! I know the issues we're touching on are very sensitive and private and I really appreciate everyone who has stepped up and contacted me. We're still working on it so feel free to e-mail me if you want more information!
I'm working on a new documentary series that will focus on women between the ages of 18 and 28 struggling with difficult issues like eating disorders, self harm, and intimacy issues. Let me know if you're interested or if you have any questions! Feel free to message me or e-mail me directly at firstname.lastname@example.org. I'm kinda new to LJ so please be patient with me!
This is Trinity. I've been away for a while now. Not sure how long. It feels like forevver though. I used to be a member of this community. I was even pretty active too. Then things got really screwed up in my life and I was away for a long time. It took me quite a while to sort myself out. I'd like to think i'm better now though.
This is probably gonna be long.
I used to be a cutter. I say used to merely in the manner that i don't cut myself anymore. I'll never forget how it feels or why i started or how much it did help me deal with things. I won't forget who i was then either. And of course i have all these scars to remind me. At first, i hated my scars, but now i've grown comfortable with them. Don't get me wrong, I'm not condoning my cutting, but my scars remind me of that time in my life. Most importantly, they remind me that i have the power within me to rise above that and survive everything. I never planned on stopping. I figured that I'd probably do this forever. I was in such a dark place in my life that i couldn't fathom anything else. When i finally moved out on my own, and away from all the awful things that drove me to hurt myself, i didn't even realize i was in a place where i could get better. but slowly, i started turning to other things instead of my razors, and before i knew it, i was a year cut-free.
i think the most important thing for people to remember if they think they need to stop is that they need to be in a healthy environment first. For quite a while, doctors, therapist, everyone, told me i SHOULD stop. But i never WANTED to. Because it was the only way i could express my incredible amount of pain. When i caould deal with that and start relieving some of my pain instead of trying to and failing because i kept getting hurt, that was when i was able to stop cutting. I'm not really sure where I'm going with this, but for those of you who still watch this community, remember there is hope, and it will get better