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>>Sbj: I hate love

I think I'd like
to pretend
that you
are not under
my skin.

We both
know {the truth}.
you're underneath.
opaquely surfacing.
you're deep.
((so deep))
piercing me
with your
barbed-wire
gaze; . . transfixed.

I wish I understood
what makes you
so fucking intense.

You've saturated my being
with your profound perfection
overwhelmed; with raging need
to be closer to someone so intent
on making me feel so utterly inferior.

{and i need.. what i emphatically am not}

(..when I am
with you
I dont feel
quite as cold
or nearly as
negative
as I really am..)

You cast me down; and I replay this scene {again & again} ..
indelibly scarred on my seemingly resistant conscious.
you pin my arms down; into the soil. {dirty, dirty whore..}

I love you {you love me not}
I love you {you love me not}
I love you {you love me not}
----------------------------------------{you love me not}
I love you {you love me not}
I love you {you love me not}
I love you {you love me not}

And I'll never be quite as good as her
And I'll never be able to measure up.
And I'll never be your beloved.

I was quite determined to erase you {completely}
but I am subborn, and I still want you for myself.
and no one else may touch your unflawed skin
and no one else may devour your soft mouth
and no one else may stare into a view as deep as coffee.
I want you for myself. {you make me appear so ameliorate}

I want to evaporate in your arms.
oh to be able to bruise myself into you..!
you suffocate me with your tongue
you bend my surface into yours
I cannot be anymore euphoric
this is already too extreme for my senses

EXPLODE.

my pieces fall amongst your soul
my heart is indefinitely paralyzed.
my breathing; interrupted.

{and I refuse to start again}
this, right here
is what I've
been waiting for.

I am concluded.



//By the way- hi everyone. I'm new. I like how this community -feels-. So uh.. Hi again. :P
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