full of lies.
forgetting the past
things of dread.
hating you too.
shadowing her fear
thinking about you.
a broken heart.
not being contempt.
still being near.
all of this pain
shes still here.
So much has gone on, I don't know how to deal
My body is numb and I wish that I could feel
There is no way I could think to explain
How it is that you cause me so much pain
There used to be a place that I could go and hide
But that special place is gone and I feel that it has died
Alone again in the dark I sense that you are near
I wish that you would leave and stop feeding my fear
I once had an excape till you came along
Now all I have is the rememberence of our song
I remember that I used to cut it all away
But that is no more as I see myself dying here this day
I remember the blood, so calming and warm
As it would fall from the cuts that were lashed in my arm
The crimson spots that cover my bedroom floor
Were the last things I remember as slammed my bed room door
So as I sit here and try to let my mind go
I still can remember that day so long ago
You said you loved me and that you'd never let me fall
But you lied because years have passed and still ignore my call.