I have decided to settle on Cosmetology with hair and makeup and decided to start doing makeup tutorial videos as a kickstart to get me in the mindset of it all.
i've become to bored with most of the people on my friends list, and i desperately need some new material. my life can get unbelievably unpredictable and fucked up (i.e. recently had my mother arrested for slashing my face, divorced after less than a year of marriage -- nov 5th 2010 to aug 23rd 2011 -- but 9 years together, starting a nonprofit out of thin air...) and i seem to be on constant brink of a nervous fucking breakdown but i'm here still so either i must be doing something right or i have just the right amount of booze and coffee to get me through this sometimes-horrifying thing i call my life.
please NOBODY under 21, no druggies or alkies, religious people or crunchy mamas. and by crunchy mamas, you know exactly what the fuck i'm talking about. thse natural parenting, attachment granola nut freaks. yeah, i get that not all of you crunchy mamas are assholes but 99% of them are and i'm sick of running into them. on the same hand, shitty parents period need not apply. and if you do nothing but bitch about your life and do nothing about it. holy annoying! can i also rule out stupid people? note: no idiots.
COMMENT ON MY FRIENDLY ONLY POST (they're screened so any shit talking will likely be ignored so don't bother) AND ADD ME FIRST, OR I WILL NOT ADD YOU.
**note: i might sound like an asshole but i'm just so over boring LJ assholes and after about 13 years on LJ, i'm over it.
Occ: President and Founder of a NONPROFIT Organization for helping struggling families
Kids: 1 boy, Roman, 4 years old
Marital: Recently divorced and seeing someone new
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Recently, my best friend of 9 years and husband of 4 split for some chick and a life free of responsibility and left my life is total ruins. He is no longer in my kid or my life, and while my kid is still devastated, it's what's best for everybody, especially my son. After not being able to get a job for almost a year after my ex left, and not being able to get into school, I decided to help others who were in my situation or like it, struggling period. So now my job is President of an up and coming nonprofit doing just that.
I'm just now learning how to date and recently got my heart broken pretty badly after a short but intense relationship with a schoolteacher, and I'm now beginning to see someone new, which is pretty scary after my track record, hahaha. I've gone from being a teenaged heartbreaker to a socially inept and emotionally scarred single mom, which is making not only dating a nightmare but getting my nonprofit off the ground difficult.
When people look at me, they usually think, hardass or metal or punk rock but I'm a bubbly giddy giggly mess, and I'm fasciated by the dumbest things. I'm an absolute nerd, from a long line of nerds, from books to math to finance.
wow, i'm bad at this. ok, basically i can be a hot ass mess because i'm still learning how to fly. i'm 23 year old single mom of a 4 year old who just built a nonprofit to help struggling families because i hate seeing children suffer, and basically i have alot on my plate but livejournal sometimes keeps my sane. i've had an LJ since like 2002 (but like 10 names) and i could never live without livejournal. i get depressed and i get stupid, i'm a 23 yr old single mom ffs and every day i'm learning. i'm not a bitch but sometimes i come off as it, because some people can't handle someone who refuses to sugarcoat the bullshit. if you're being stupid, i will call you out and i expect the same.
if you don't want someone's 2 cents, DON'T ADD ME! if i comment, it's because i have something to say, not "aww that sucks that your boyfriend cheated on you", i will say "get a fucking grip and leave him!". i'm a realist, people and if you can't handle it, i will tell you right now, do not add me. i'm a rare breed. also, if you have something nasty to say, expect something nasty right back.
if you do add me, please update and comment regularly. i'm not looking to beef up my friends list numbers, i'm looking to expand my friends, read more journals and have more read mine.
kids: roman, 4 years old
status: recently out of a long relationship with my kid's dad who's out of the picture now and in a new one
work: SAHM, waiting for october to start a BA
location: brandon, FL (15 minutes south of tampa)
there are a few major things going on in my life, like my two most recent ex boyfriends not wanting to let me go, getting bariatric surgery this year (lapband), my struggle with PCOS, infertility, independence, my new relationship and still getting over the pain over my last relationship. my life was turned entirely upside down last august when i found out my fiance of 4 years and best friend of 9 was cheating on me and subsequently left me for her. i've been a SAHM for the last 4 years so i had to move back in with mom & dad and have to go to college to support my kid. i don't see a penny from him, or get any phone calls even, so i'm entirely on my own (for now). so basically shit is rough and my life can be a serious whirlwind, especially with this new relationship which is wonderful but very busy.
note: i DO NOT add new or recently made journls BY ANY MEANS, under 21, or just irresponsible stupid people. please no sluts or generally morally corrupt people. please no crunchy mamas (you know who you are) or people into swinging or polyamory and shit like that. i'm not closed-minded, i'm just not interested in reading about something i'm highly against (i have my own personal reasons, and we all have shit we are against so don't be a dick about it).
a little more in depth: sean and i split in august after he cheated and left me for the girl, and he came crawling back while i was dating a new kid that didn't last long. now both of them have been tugging at my ankles, while i'm trying to move on. i'm starting college for interior design in october, and i've been a stay at home mom since my kid was born. i'm not your typical suburban mom.. i was abused and neglected emotionally growing up and i have an incredibly hard time making friends irl and forming attachments, making parenting and relationships very difficult. no, i'm not a bitch but i'm just a very straight up, no bs kind of person.
i've been struggling with PCOS for the last decade and getting bariatric surgery next month, and hopefully get pregnant in the not too distant future. basically, this year is going to be life changing.
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- 23 years old
- mom to a 4 year old superbeast, roman
- fresh out of alooongggg assssss relationship with my kid's dad and high school bff, sean
- in an incredible new relationship with the sickest high school teacher ever, morgan
- about to start on a BFA in interior design
- stay at home mom since my kid was born
- just south of tampa flawduhh
- punk rock and hip hop flows through my veins
- nerd extroardinare
- ocd as fuck