November 30th, 2008

drawing of me

change is scary - even good change

so my new summer jeans that were a smaller size & were tight when I bought them are falling down - this is good. But, it's scary - I liked the jeans, I like me, it's hard to change, even though I know it's needed & healthy for me.

I get new clothes that fit well & put most my old ones in bins. I really need to pack up all my old clothes & donate them. I just need to do it. I need to let go of my old weight & embrace my new healthier me. It's still scary & I find myself getting a fast food burger or a dessert when I think about it too much - I need to have ... somehow, some new comfort and security in being smaller.