eugaira (eugaira) wrote in _weightwatchers,
eugaira
eugaira
_weightwatchers

the quick fix

there was this girl that was sort of my competition for my husband's attention back before we were dating. we both pursued him, and in the end i "won" (that is now up for debate).

we were both fat girls who lost weight on ww.

i've been on and off of ww ever since. i am 20 pounds heavier now than i was the day i met doug. i am 50 pounds heavier than i want to be. the year is ending and i am feeling discouraged that i'm not ending it as thin as i would like to be.

and now i've heard - and seen the proof - that she has had weight loss surgery. she looks fantastic. really. and i kinda hate her for it. obviously i am totally jealous and insecure.

why am i struggling, counting points, going without, when there is a quick fix out there?

all of this is coming to a head because she is coming to town to visit my husband's friend - her new romantic interest - and wants all 4 of us to hang out. and i can't bear it. to be near her, her looking great, me - well, not looking so great. what if he wants her when he sees her? my husband, i mean?

fuck, i'm faking the plague to get out of this.

ughh. i wonder what i would give to wake up thinner tomorrow?
Subscribe
  • Post a new comment

    Error

    Comments allowed for members only

    Anonymous comments are disabled in this journal

    default userpic
  • 20 comments