icecream

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A heartbreaking day for me considering the breakup with my passive-aggressive--no, make that aggressive-aggressive boyfriend. He actually told me he isn't attracted to me anymore. Unbelievable. I've already lost 15 lbs in 6 months!! It's because I don't go to the gym anymore. He's obsessed with the gym. Well, I'll show him. Time for bed and calories consumed today=ZERO. Though I probably should have a glass of water. Anyway :/ time to cry myself to sleep. Goodnight all.

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icecream

Sick

Being sick always makes me super lazy and i eat more simply because because I sit around with nothing better to do. I think i may have gained a pound or two but I'm too scared to check. I am waiting to weigh in until my cold goes away so that I can get in the gym and hopefully a couple of days of hard restricting will rectify the situation.

I'm wondering if anyone has ever gone raw vegan? I saw a show about 2 controversial diets. One was the raw vegan diet. It seems awesome, because you consume only veggies and fruits--essentially low calorie foods. The other diet was straight "CR" or calorie restriction. I do this anyway, but not as precise. Anyone out there weigh all of their food? I'd also like to buy a good, inexpensive food scale. Recommendations?

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icecream

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It's been so long.
It's been so long since I even tried to control my monster within that makes me eat eat eat.
You think it's hard having an illness where you try to starve yourself?
Try eating uncontrollably to fill some void in vain.
The guilt that follows...
I have to stop.
Once again, I start from scratch tomorrow.
legs

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Hi, I'm new here, my name's Stephanie. I guess I'll post my stats.

Hight: 5'5"
weight: 106lbs
BMI: 17.6
Lowest Weight: 98lbs
Highest Weight: 136lbs
Short Term Goal: 98

:)
icecream

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I am, in essence, an overreater. I may periodically fast or restrict or even purge on a couple of occassions, but the thing that remains constant is my constant desire for MORE. Fill up, my mind says...Do anything, just feel full. Wouldn't it be better to feel full with self-esteem, or a great body image? Problem is, I can't get to that point without getting rid of my temporary fixes that manifest in the form of food or even alcohol. I am always empty and wanting something more. Even as I say this, I've just finished eating and the guilt is overwhelming. I will be going to the gym later because purging is far too scary to fall into on a consistent basis. I want to try something new tomorrow. Usually, I try to starve myself to lose weight. Inevitably, I have to eat to live and when I finally give in, I'm sure I make up for all the calories I've missed and then some. So tomorrow, I want to restrict. I want to stick to fluids mostly, but when I'm particularly hungry I think I'll eat salad with fat free dressing or other no calorie vegetables. Maybe if I don't completely stay away from food, I'll feel full enough to avoid the headaches and weakness that always ensue when I fast. Please help me out by listing some zero calorie food ideas besides salad because if this works out and I continue it for days, I will need a little variety to keep me on track. Call it a diet, if you will, but hopefully with a daily caloric intake verrrry minimal. Anyone else fasting or restricting in the next few days please comment so we can keep each other on our toes.
icecream

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Still haven't eaten yet today :)
Though fasting may prove to be impossible around my bf, I'll try to stick to soups and salads when I do eat.
Everything light...
What are the best low-cal foods to order at a restaurant?