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[30 Nov 2011|11:05pm]


A heartbreaking day for me considering the breakup with my passive-aggressive--no, make that aggressive-aggressive boyfriend. He actually told me he isn't attracted to me anymore. Unbelievable. I've already lost 15 lbs in 6 months!! It's because I don't go to the gym anymore. He's obsessed with the gym. Well, I'll show him. Time for bed and calories consumed today=ZERO. Though I probably should have a glass of water. Anyway :/ time to cry myself to sleep. Goodnight all.

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Sick [15 Sep 2010|12:38pm]


Being sick always makes me super lazy and i eat more simply because because I sit around with nothing better to do. I think i may have gained a pound or two but I'm too scared to check. I am waiting to weigh in until my cold goes away so that I can get in the gym and hopefully a couple of days of hard restricting will rectify the situation.

I'm wondering if anyone has ever gone raw vegan? I saw a show about 2 controversial diets. One was the raw vegan diet. It seems awesome, because you consume only veggies and fruits--essentially low calorie foods. The other diet was straight "CR" or calorie restriction. I do this anyway, but not as precise. Anyone out there weigh all of their food? I'd also like to buy a good, inexpensive food scale. Recommendations?

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STG Reached :) [03 Sep 2010|03:19pm]


Reached my first STG :) next goal, get too an even 100 lbs!!!

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Yay :) [02 Sep 2010|02:39pm]


Weighed in at 112.6! 2 lbs loss since this time yesterday! Need to be under 110 by Sunday! I cannnnnn doooo it!!!

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Fruta Planta [01 Sep 2010|02:27pm]

Any users out there? What were the results?
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[11 Jun 2006|08:02pm]

It's been so long.
It's been so long since I even tried to control my monster within that makes me eat eat eat.
You think it's hard having an illness where you try to starve yourself?
Try eating uncontrollably to fill some void in vain.
The guilt that follows...
I have to stop.
Once again, I start from scratch tomorrow.
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[23 Feb 2006|12:56am]

Hi, I'm new here, my name's Stephanie. I guess I'll post my stats.

Hight: 5'5"
weight: 106lbs
BMI: 17.6
Lowest Weight: 98lbs
Highest Weight: 136lbs
Short Term Goal: 98

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[20 Feb 2006|04:34pm]

I am, in essence, an overreater. I may periodically fast or restrict or even purge on a couple of occassions, but the thing that remains constant is my constant desire for MORE. Fill up, my mind says...Do anything, just feel full. Wouldn't it be better to feel full with self-esteem, or a great body image? Problem is, I can't get to that point without getting rid of my temporary fixes that manifest in the form of food or even alcohol. I am always empty and wanting something more. Even as I say this, I've just finished eating and the guilt is overwhelming. I will be going to the gym later because purging is far too scary to fall into on a consistent basis. I want to try something new tomorrow. Usually, I try to starve myself to lose weight. Inevitably, I have to eat to live and when I finally give in, I'm sure I make up for all the calories I've missed and then some. So tomorrow, I want to restrict. I want to stick to fluids mostly, but when I'm particularly hungry I think I'll eat salad with fat free dressing or other no calorie vegetables. Maybe if I don't completely stay away from food, I'll feel full enough to avoid the headaches and weakness that always ensue when I fast. Please help me out by listing some zero calorie food ideas besides salad because if this works out and I continue it for days, I will need a little variety to keep me on track. Call it a diet, if you will, but hopefully with a daily caloric intake verrrry minimal. Anyone else fasting or restricting in the next few days please comment so we can keep each other on our toes.
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Here's our banner! Promo it up! [20 Feb 2006|01:06pm]


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[01 Jan 2006|03:00pm]

Still haven't eaten yet today :)
Though fasting may prove to be impossible around my bf, I'll try to stick to soups and salads when I do eat.
Everything light...
What are the best low-cal foods to order at a restaurant?
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[30 Dec 2005|07:52pm]

Comment on this post with your New Years Resolutions!
Be as specific as possible!
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[18 Dec 2005|07:51pm]

Wow. I've been avoiding this journal like the plague. I don't want to face the fact that I've screwed up royally. I really have been eating waaaay too much because I left one of my jobs and the bills are stacking up, so I'm home alone all day, stressing over money and school. It really is taking a toll on things. My boyfriend is on his way over right now to take me to dinner and a movie. Macaroni Grill. FAT FAT FAT. I'm going to eat normally tonight and start restricting tomorrow. It's virtually impossible to fast with a boyfriend, but I will start on diet pills and restrict like a mofo this week. Also, I need to get back in the gym. Gotta go. Good luck everyone.
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new :] [06 Dec 2005|03:00pm]

im new here.
i need some serioussss motivation. ive gained so much weight.

height- 5'2"
CW- 120
LW- 113
STGW1- 115
then ill be good to go.

im not sure what happened, i used to have alot more self control i guess. or i think i just got happy for a while.
oh well now ill get back on track.
this is a new journal so if anyone wants to add me go for it :]
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[03 Dec 2005|07:09pm]

Welcome to the new members of the community. Glad to see it's growing. Keep inviting friends--maybe put a link in your personal journals. And update, update, update! Glad to have you all :)

Well on a different note,
things haven't been good for me diet-wise.
I am unsuccessful at ever fast I start.
My boyfriend is always around and I always eat with him so he doesn't get suspicious :\
I have been going to the gym, though. At least that cuts off a few calories.
I can't seem to start fasting unless it's on a Monday? Does anyone else have this problem?
Mondays seem so neat and definite. The perfect day to start something new.
Well here are my stats...maybe pictures later if I buy batteries for my digital cam.

Age: 21
Height: 5'3"
CW: 112 lbs
HW: 115 lbs
LW: 98 lbs
STG: 100 lbs
LTG: 85-90 lbs

I read a post in another community about us encouraging the unhealthy loss of weight by having these communities. I just want to say, I don't want for any of you to do things to put your lives in danger. If at all possible, try to take care of yourselves and lose weight in a safe way. Restrict calories and exercise over starving and purging whenever possible. You all are beautiful. Good luck reaching your goals. <3 J

P.S. I picked up some anorexia related books. I already read Wasted by Marya Hornbacher and it's really good. I'm reading it a second time now. Has anyone read Stick Figure by Lori Gottlieb or The Best Little Girl In The World by steven Levenkron? If so, how are they? If not, I'll let you know when I'm done reading them.
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[03 Dec 2005|07:08pm]

Not sure if anyone posted this yet...
Interesting article on the disease in youngins
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[23 Nov 2005|09:36pm]

hey i just joined your community, i hope you dont mind.. do you?
I know its small but it seemed really cute, and i loved the name.

My stats are 123lbs at 5"9, my bmi is about 18.2. I hope to reach 115lbs soon.
Anyway yeah, take care x
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[20 Nov 2005|03:42pm]

Okay, so I've got one member! Hi, violets! :) When you join, please invite any friends so we can get this thing goin! Welcome and hope you reach all your goals.
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[12 Nov 2005|08:14pm]

Welcome, all! Post away...
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