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[04 Aug 2009|04:48pm]

Hello girls! I haven't been on for a while becuase my boss said she would fire me if i didn't eat... cause of my mood and stuff. Anyways, that was just a summer job and IT'S OVER!
so, i really need to get back on track.. It's been a lot easier than i ever thought it would be. In fact, it's harder not to be on track.
anyone want to join me? i really want a texting buddie!
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Stress & Weight Management Camp [24 Jul 2009|06:23pm]

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Hey everyone,


I get this very interesting and reprieving solution for our stress and weight problems. Stress & Weight Management - the yoga way is a 2 day workshop for stress & weight difficulties, which is been organized by The Yoga Institute. It gets us acquainted about Asanas, Pranayama, Kriyas, Relaxation Techniques, Diet plan for stress & weight management specifically and many more.


With this exciting news, all the Yoga & Health lovers are welcome to:




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I'm baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaack [14 Jul 2009|10:29am]

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After 3 years of being out of the community and out of all the support, I realized i need it again, more than ever.  I've gone on bipolar medication and it's made me fat.  I need your support like I never have before to get me thin again!!

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[30 Jun 2009|11:51pm]

Hi I am selina and am new to this group
I am 5 4
CW-between 110-115

I havebeen anorexic for almost 3 years

feel free to add or message me
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can someone please help me??? [29 Jun 2009|10:41pm]

well, it happened again. Every now and then my tummy wont let me purge (and it hurts soo bad). Can someone please tell me what to do when a toothbrush won't work?
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[30 Apr 2009|10:12pm]

Anyone here have MSN and wanna talk about your ED or whatever? Add me, lilian_mayer_23@hotmail.com
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[25 Jun 2008|06:48pm]
Hello guys!

I want to invite you to become a member of a brand new board dedicating to everything lifestylish like fashion, beauty, living & especially diets. You have the chance to be one of the very first users!

Please visit & join:

I didn't find a word against advertisement in the community rules. If I overlooked them, I have to apologize.
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enough [21 Feb 2008|07:09pm]

 I'm quite the sneaky person and I found out that my boyfriend is proposing this next summer... and I am a fat mess.  I HAVE lose this weight before he comes home from school for the summer.  I don't want him asking me to marry him while I sit or stand there uncomtfortably wondering is my gut is sticking out.  I have to be thin and careless.. .My college eating habits have gone WAY too far.  My goal is to lose 5 pounds before comes home for spring break on March 5.  and then lose 15 pounds more after that before May when he comes home for the summer.

cw 145
stg 140
ltg 125

So I plan on eating a super low calorie diet and working out EVERYDAY

Tomorrow I'm going to the gym  after work and class and doing a half hour on the eliptical, 

Does any one find results in doing crunches?  I'd like to do some but I'm afraid they will just make me buik up,


Here''s a picture somsone took of me today.... when I saw it, I decided enough was enough
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Oh yeah.... here's pics [26 Sep 2007|09:18pm]


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Depressed [26 Aug 2007|08:49pm]

As a freshmen in my first semester in college, everything was going so well.  I loved my classes and such..

But now.... I just feel shitty... overweight and just bad.... weighing 135 lbs (5'7)..... its just so bad.

I was falling in love with a boy from Germany... and falling out of love of what was a relationship going nowhere.  And now... the old relationship wont go away.... and the German boy.... has seemed to abandon me.  I dunno...I just want to be weightless.... 

I haven't been ana in two years, but if anytime was the right time to start again, it would be now. 
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weekend goal [01 Jul 2006|03:56pm]

My goal this weekend is to NOT give in to all the picnic food that is sure to be shoved in my face. Whey do people feel the need to stuff their faces just because it's a holiday? I'm going to drink lots of water while I'm sitting around at parties and only eat fruit.
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ana goes bad [28 Jun 2006|09:45pm]

My exboyfriend who RECENTLY left... I'm still incredibly in love with. Like... I could spend my life with this boy. But he wants me to eat, gain weight back, be happier, and stop crying whenever I see him. Every time I've seen him since I've been out of the hospital (for not eating) and he broke up with me because he couldn't handle my depression. I start hysterically crying. Like I can't control it. I miss him soooo fucking bad and I love him with all my heart, but he doesn't understand how much he is asking when he wants me to go back to the way I was. I mean.... somehow I can't be happy again without him, yet he wont see me again until I gain weight and somehow pull myself out of this depression. I can't stop crying sometimes. I mean it feels so weird to sleep without him. Its so awful. I mean I don't want to be fat and everything, but I love this boy. And he shouldn't complain about me being skinny, I mean he's SUPER skinny for a guy and I think he's so gorgous the way he is. I don't know what to do. I wake up crying in the middle of the night because I miss him so bad. I call him crying in the middle of the night and he's so angry. He doesn't want me crying anymore and wants me to be happy again yet I can't be happy being fat again and I can't be happy without him.
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feelin good [27 Jun 2006|05:18pm]

Today I had a ff yogurt, a banana, 1/4 cup raisons, and green tea. I just did 30 minutes of step. I know I should've gone longer but I was kinda tired. Then I did abs and arms. I plan on having some veggies for dinner... I hope I can resist binging. Tomorrow I'm gonna totally bump up the exercise.
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[27 Jun 2006|12:07pm]
Im new...
My name is Laine.
Im currently 5'9 and 140 lbs.

I have a quick question,
Im bulimic and just purged,
all ive eaten today is an apple and a tiny bit of cookie dough.
but when i threw up,
it looked like i was throwing up my insides...
like, blood clots or little bits of my asophagus(i know i misspelled that word..sorry)

any of you have any idea what im talking about?
Is this normal?
Ive always had bulimic tendencys, but ive just recently moved out and now im purging more and more often....

thanks for your help!
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A new beginning... [26 Jun 2006|06:33pm]

Today I feel like I'm starting all over again. I know this time will be different and I won't slip like before... I just feel it. I went to the store and bought fat free chicken broth, green tea, and flavored H20. All I've had today is a fat free yogurt and a banana. I'll probably just have some broth after my work out tonight. Does anyone know how long you're supposed to wait after working out before you eat something? I'm waiting for some work out videos from the library so until then I'll do elliptical and weight, etc. I just know everyone I will be talking about me eating "weird" again but oh well. They can stay fat... not my prob. I totally want to be as skinny as Nicole Richie.
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New Problem [26 Jun 2006|11:31am]

Soooo... I've lost a bunch of weight and my stomach, legs, arms, and face look sooo much better.... but for some reason my back looks... chubbier?

I don't know... for some reason my back has never been a problem area but now I'm noticing that it looks like I have love handles or something. Has anyone else had this problem after dropping weight?

Any ideas?
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HAPPY! [23 Jun 2006|10:22am]

i finally improved!

new stats-
cw- 124
hw- 140
lw- 124
stg- 125 (I MADE IT!!!!!! and I've held onto that weight for a week now..)
ltg- 120
height- 5'6

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I'm new! [20 Jun 2006|01:24pm]

ht: 5'5
cw: 108
hw: 115
lw: 105
gw: 95-100
anorexic, heavy use of diet pills

Hi everyone, I'm new to LJ and I'm looking for friends :) Most people don't understand what its like to be anorexic so i came to find people like me who do~Please feel free to message me!
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reborn [04 Jun 2006|10:44pm]

Updated Stats-
height: 5'6
cw: 130
hw: 140
st gw: 125
lt gw: 120

I went to a eating disorder specialist for bulmia and compulsive eating cause my mum made me. The lady was fat as hell... not exactly encouraging. I mean it makes you wanna go "fuck i don't want to stop what im doing.. i might end up like you".... but yeah... she told me my face was "full" around my jaw bone because the muscle there was realy big from throwing up... i was so fucking depressed after that... but yeah.. i haven't been able to bring myself to purge cause i need to make my face thinner... i did research and it is true... purging can make your face fuller...... ew.

i feel gross... im so muscular.. and i need to get rid of it.... my legs are nothing but two disgusting hunks of muscle... i say this because they are seriously rock hard muscle.. no fat... but still huge because there is so much muscle... any ideas?

as for now... im sticking to a restricted low cal thing.

i have another question... if you saw a person with my stats in a two piece would you be sicked.... i mean i know its gross but would you seriously be like "OMG WHAT A FAT ASS?" cause im afraid to go swimming tomorrow... i dunno.. i need truth ladies.

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MYSPACE PRO-ANA COMMUNITY!!! [05 May 2006|12:47am]

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Pro-Ana community that needs you!
Come join our commmunity to find fasting parteners, motivation and awsome friends!!!!

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