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Polar Bear - sleeping


I am taking three classes this semester - one live, two online. My online classes have been difficult for me to manage at times... One is Child Psychology; the other is Teaching Literature in Early Child and Elem Education. In both classes, my classmates tend to go on about their own children, pregnancies, etc... My issues regarding this subject have been negatively impacting my class participation. I need to be in the exact right frame of mind to be able to stay rational while reading through the posts.

It's not at all easy...

I think I need to "talk" to my teachers about this, but how much do I disclose???

Please help if you can... (crossposted)

Let me start off with my big acomplisment:  I got out of my chair and walked a long distance for the first time after the Baclofen pump surgery, at school on Thursday!  I can't to show off to everone who can watch ar school and at my Graduation party!  I'm so proud of myself for this victory! :)

Okay...I'm really not kidding though, when is it time to call my therapist and/or psychiatrist?  I'm so overwalmed and confused because I have so much to do and absolutely no motivation to do it!  I found myself saying "I'm sorry" in counseling at school the other day, because I hurt so bad emotionally and nobody understands, that I'm almost sorry for being in psychological pain.  My doctor just increased my Prozac from 15 to 20mgs, but gave me permission to go back down if I didn't like it.  Well I did because I felt like I didn't want to wake up the night before counseling, and I wanted to see the pain with my eyes, so that way it was real in some respect.  I no longer want to die, but I do want the pain to be real to someone other than myself!  I wish my parents understood and I could tell them how I feel, but I can't because I'm afraid they'll think I'm "creating drama" or something like they always do.  I'm just generally unmotivated and depressed and don't feel right keeping this from a professional; I need to talk to some who is not judgemental, but it's not a life or death emergency at the moment, so I feel funny telling my therapist and/or doctor when it's not a scheduled appointment...  It can become hard to control at times though, so what do I do?  I just need to talk to someone who's not family or friends....do you understand what I'm saying?  It might be due to lack of "restful" sleep, even though I slept through the whole night last night, so I took a Visteril tonight, but it's still not right!

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Brittany the Chipette!

therapy homework

I was doing the assignment in Courage to Heal for Honoring What You Did to Survive, and I thought I might share it with you guys. I'm printing it out for my therapist-Christina-tomorrow. I was hoping to have tired myself out with all the emotional work it takes to do those things, and it hasn't yet worked. Maybe I went too numb....anyways, just popping by to say hello and share a bit. I hope everyone is doing well. :-) -Brittany

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