Surgery went well, I'm home and doped up on massive amounts of painkillers.
So, snipped, finally, but... the bad news/good news is that the doc told Sean [boyfriend] that they didn't see anything out of the ordinary.
So, no endo, at least that's visible, but I've still got a TON of unexplained pain. :(
Ok whoa. Very sorry. I didnt mean to offend. Yes I was asking for advice. I was (and still am upset) and have a lot in my head. I think it was a one time thing, he doesnt understand why he did it, knew it was wrong. Anyway....I am sorry if I offended, I was not in a good place and I know thats not an excuse, but I cant really apolagize any harder.
I dont want to leave this place, part of the reason I posted was because you guys are awsome and have been where I have so we all look at things a little differantly, anyway, I am at work and have to go.
my sincere apolagies....
I took some of my Klonopin (for which I have a prescription) and took a nap and was cuddled by one of my partners (I'm polyamorous). The partner who cuddled me is himself a survivor of childhood physical abuse and neglect, so he could relate pretty well.
I feel a lot better now. Thanks to everybody for the hugs and support.
I just realized I hadn't posted in here for quite awhile. This has just been a really bad time, but wanted to send good thoughts to all, and to say I hope everybody's doing OK.
Please take care of yourselves and be good to you. :)
No matter what happens tomorrow, I want to thank every single one of you for the support you've shown me and the prayers/thoughts/vibes you've taken precious time to send to me and my family.
Thank you all so much for helping us through this. It means the world to me.
Given the people here, and what most have gone through, I deeply regret my post yesterday discussing violence. Please understand I would never hurt someone other than myself, and if I upset anyone by my post I am very, very sorry. You all deserve support, not triggers from stupid males who can't avoid bad-tempered displays.
Respectfully and apologetically,
For those who are interested, please check my private journal for next update it is kind of important.
Thank you to those for caring and to others who taught me that caring is a gift and selfless and there are too many ppl in this world who are not and are not worth our time.
I want to thank everyone for the outpouring of support this past weekend. I'm hanging on by my fingernails (at least they are strong I have the fake ones). I don't want to let you guys down, you're the only ones who care.