Tags: substance/drug abuse

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Cut for--- feeling like I am forced into having sex, memories of rape (no details), suicidal ideas, feeling like things are out of control, cutting, family issues, smoking pot, drinking, and the possibility of being pregnant.
This post is going to be jumping back and forth, like where ever my thoughts go-- then I will be typing it out like that. Just saying. Now on to my post.

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bjork painted

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just thought id post about my weekend. which was enlightening, to say the least...

my ex and one of my now ex-friends were all over each other right in front of me, then i found out she's been calling me a psycho and a bitch and accusing me of just being "emo" and wanting attention, i wanted to tell her to shut her fucking mouth and realise that that's HER but she's too selfish to listen, because you know, she rules the world, so i said in many colourful words that i never want to see her again, and i really really mean it. him too, they deserve each other the stupid wanky fucks.

the night that followed the blow-up was fun, then it turned completely pear-shaped...


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thankyou, im quite done now.

Lain Arm

Depressed, question.

I just want to know...

I'm really depressed right now. I do not want to try to kill myself. I just want to numb myself. I never drink, not ever. But tonight I have a full bottle of vodka and it's looking rather tempting. I've had a hard time with losing my job and having the unemployment reject me. I am quite sad.

How bad is a mix of vodka, vicoden, valium and flexoril? One of each pill, low doseage... Will this be life threatening, vomit inducing or just make me pass the feck out? Any ideas? I'm trying to stop myself from cutting, but it's hard to fight the temptation now.