Cut for--- feeling like I am forced into having sex, memories of rape (no details), suicidal ideas, feeling like things are out of control, cutting, family issues, smoking pot, drinking, and the possibility of being pregnant.
This post is going to be jumping back and forth, like where ever my thoughts go-- then I will be typing it out like that. Just saying. Now on to my post.

So things have been rather busy with college and all. So far so good. But things with my mother and brother haven't. So I need to just talk I guess...
( family violence, my brother going to jail, my mother wanting to 'fix things',mention of drug use, mention of abuse and sexual abuse of a child, and my friend bring up why don't I throw my parents in jail. Collapse )Sorry it was so long.
~ashley

I'm new here. This is my story. Sorry, but I have to get this out.

I need some advice.

( Cut for Inappropriate Touching and Childhood Sexual Abuse TriggersCollapse )

just thought id post about my weekend. which was enlightening, to say the least...

my ex and one of my now ex-friends were all over each other right in front of me, then i found out she's been calling me a psycho and a bitch and accusing me of just being "emo" and wanting attention, i wanted to tell her to shut her fucking mouth and realise that that's HER but she's too selfish to listen, because you know, she rules the world, so i said in many colourful words that i never want to see her again, and i really really mean it. him too, they deserve each other the stupid wanky fucks.

the night that followed the blow-up was fun, then it turned completely pear-shaped...

(WARNING: MENTION OF DRUG USE/CUTTING/ED'S AND GENERAL RAGE.)


thankyou, im quite done now.

HAPPY AND SAFE HOLIDAYS!!!

Cut for drug use and violence.

( Today my mother found out...Collapse )

Sara

I just want to know...

I'm really depressed right now. I do not want to try to kill myself. I just want to numb myself. I never drink, not ever. But tonight I have a full bottle of vodka and it's looking rather tempting. I've had a hard time with losing my job and having the unemployment reject me. I am quite sad.

How bad is a mix of vodka, vicoden, valium and flexoril? One of each pill, low doseage... Will this be life threatening, vomit inducing or just make me pass the feck out? Any ideas? I'm trying to stop myself from cutting, but it's hard to fight the temptation now.

I had a nightmare last night.



Has anyone else had this experience? Felt so depressed for no reason that you drank yourself into a stupor and had horrible nightmares as a consequence? What do I do? How do I make them go away?