Tags: pedophilia


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More of my 'cleansing writing', uhmm contains triggers of abusive violence and molestation. Thankyou for such a positive response to my first piece.

This is just as a mental cleanser for myself, really. Get it out.

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hey there

It has been awhile since I posted anything because I had surgery. The worse feeling is giving an abuser control.
For the last weeks one of my abusers has been in control of everything...when I eat, sleep, go to the bathroom, get medicine...It is really triggering eating issues, self harm issues, and the rape.

Also my child molestor (sp.) uncle is out of prison, and mom wants us to go visit.

I get to go back to work tomorrow and see some of my support system. I am struggling.

I have missed this community though!

i work with a rapist...

i just need to get this off my chest. it's kind of a rant i guess you could say. i read everyone's posts, but i hardly ever comment since i really dont know what to say half the time. and i wanna tell you all that youre all so supportive and brave for everything youve all went through.

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i'm gonna try to be more active in this community cuz i think it would really help me. thanks for listening/reading.
  • cnes

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This has been weighing on my mind for some time now and I feel like I just need to get it all out.

I warn you, there's some lengthy rambling ahead.

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I feel like I'm stuck between two places right now. On the one hand I don't feel like I can really call myself a victim because nothing happened to me personally, but yet I don't feel normal because I had to see all that stuff and because of the damage it's caused my family. So far I haven't found anyone else who's had a similar experience to mine and I feel so alone.
  • rynzi

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This is more of a question to people out there that might know anything about this. I heard that there is no law about letting a community know about a pedophile that is released into it in Canada. Is this true?
There is one that was released into our small community. (about 500 people) On his record apparently it is stated he is at a high risk to reoffend. were he lives, actaully the next house down from were I am currently babysiting three children, there are alot of children. Luckily our community is a prison community, (Well there's a pen here and a lot of guards live here. The guy also went to prison here.) so a lot of people do know what he has done.
My cousin's wife sadly does not believe he has done these things though and apparently lets him around her two young daughters. (one is 5 years old the other is maybe one with downs.) This scares me greatly. I personally know someone that was rapped as a child and the thought that it could happen to my litle second cousins scare me.

Sorry I just need to rant about this a little. Any advice or anything would be great.

blue butterfly

Husbands homecoming

Now, this isn't much about abuse or my story, however, my husband is coming home from a few weeks deployment with the Navy, and I just kind of need somewhere personal to talk about these sort of things. Yes, there is some reference to my abuse, but it's not that I'm completely going into it again. It's just, my mother denied it, my family doesn't know, my friends don't know, and in fact I'd rather not disclose that right now to anyone since you all were the first to get the story, any of it, at all (besides that I was abused).
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So, now he's stationed on a boat and he goes to sea for different periods of time, this time a few weeks, next time a few months, then for six months. Luckily, no females work on his ship, or we wouldn't be together. I missed him horribly. Still sort of do, but now he's coming home tomorrow. And at first I was happy, but now I'm scared and mad. Not just because of the past with him, but because he asked me to do something for him. I'd done it before, but he asked me to shave down there. I don't have a huge problem with it, I hate when it grows back, but it's never really bothered me before, and now it is. I think I know why too.
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Is it wrong for me to be so defensive and judgemental? I don't think that any of it is true, but it scares me none the less. It scares me because I think on one hand how if I don't do it, he won't be interested and find someone else. But on the other if I do, then I'll just be throwing myself into the cycle I was before where I don't live for myself, but just live to make everyone happy so that I could pretend I didn't exist in my sorrow. I do think it's just because of my abuse, and all the thoughts and nightmares floating around recently due to finally confronting it. But anyone have suggestions on how to approach this matter? Should I tell him what I'm thinking, even if it's taking steps back on my trust in him? Should I just trust him? I'm so confussed.... thanks for letting me rant.