Tags: panic attacks

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I just woke up. And FREAKED out.

I hate it when I do this.

Sometimes ill wake up, and whatever im dreaming ill see in real life. No matter if its a person or an object or whatever. The image will be clear and be no more than five feet before me.

That happend ever so often and ill freak out, litteraly wake up an run.


It just happend now, only I thought it was a centipede on my wall next to my head. I saw it and ran downstairs and to my mom shaking.

She went with em adn looked on my walls, in my bed, under my bed..its no where.

I hate it when I do that. And I tried to explain thats what happends sometimes and she looked at me like im crazy.

What is this? 

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Oh my god, I feel like such an asshole! I knocked over two vials of crystals my lab mate had set up. I'm alone in the lab on a saturday morning. She had them sitting right next to a bag of tubes and when I reached into the bag of tubes the bag hit the vials and spilled two of them. This might have been a lot of work for her. I feel like shit and I just want her to come in soon so I can talk to her. I hope she isnt mad and I hope it is something she can redo.

I feel really bad and I am working on not getting panicy. I feel kinda like I used to when my mom told me I did something wrong, right before she would rip my entire character apart. so my brain is starting to tell me nasty things since I don't have anyone here to "yell" at me. Does anyone else do this?

Blah, I can't believe I did this to someone else.