Tags: obsessive compulsive disorder

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Hi everyone,
I have just joined livejournal. I am a victim of child molestation by my mom's ex-husband. When I was 17 I took him to court but he is still free because the case kept getting adjourned and my fear to testify grew to the point where I couldn't anymore. What's worse is that he is my little sister's biological father and he has a right to see her and call her. It is hard to deal with the fact that I have to hear his voice on the machine and have to know exactly when he's picking her up so I don't run into him. He abused me for six years and left a very deep emotional scar. I am seeing a therapist and taking medication. I have been diagnosed with Post tramatic stress and OCD. My mom loves me but she just is not strong enough to stand up to him. I have a lot of anger at my mom and especially the jerk that did this to me. I am 24 now and just dealing with the emotional outcome of what I went through. I was numb for many years including when I took the jerk to court. My advice to those who have gone through similar situations is to definitely seek help and be strong. It is not your fault this happened and whoever can do such things is a sick person who needs to be either locked up behind bars or in a padded room. If anyone has any questions or advice please feel free to comment.

Melissa

still surviving..

i'm 20/f. a survivor of childhood sexual abuse (by various people), also emotional abuse, a witness of family violence (childhood), verbal abuse and criticism. i am still struggling to overcome all that its made me become. i have never known who 'I' am..never had a voice of my own. always afraid of rejection. i have a fear of people, mostly men. i don't do good in social situations and do not have friends. i basically have a lot of mental health issues that make everyday very hard to keep breathing...BUT..i am still breathing...amazingly..i deal with depression, ocd tendencies, ptsd, anorexia, self-injury, dissociative disorders, generalized anxiety, social phobia and a bit of agoraphobia..they all go on and off..i never know wut i'm going to deal with when i wake up in the morning..makes life..even more chaotic...and..in short, that is a bit about me...