Hi- I found this community because I am struggling with something that happened a long time ago. It is stupid and it is anniversary time and I have realized how much these events have shaped my life and the relationships that I have. I would appreciate any feedback and comments that you care to make.
I created this account simply to protect the identity of my friend while I posted this. I think she would be upset with me if she knew I posted this, but I don't know what else to do. My friend has been raped, brutally twice in the last two and a half years-three years and I just don't know how to help her. I'm going to post more details, just wanted to let you guys know why I was posting. There may be some triggers in here, not being a victim myself I can only guess.
I have not posted in a while on here. I am sorry I have been real busy and hurting a lot. I broke up with my boyfriend because he started acting like my abuser. I miscarried twins about a week ago. I have been in so much pain I still cannot cry. I don't know how to make it all go away. I want to be a normal person who isnt on ssi because she loses it at work if someone even looks at me wrong. I have been hating on myself and I know I shouldn't. I still wish for the days before I was attacked. I never seem to get over these thoughts of dying. My daughter is the only reason I am here. Well I don't have anything else to say.