I don't want to think anymore...

I'm WIDE awake and the only one up. I can't help but just think. I want to take a walk....outside in the cold barefoot and with shorts and a t-shirt. I want to focus and feel the cold that way my brain shuts up. I just don't want her to wake up and freak out if I'm not there.

( cut for not being able to sleep, ptsd, anxiety over career choice, spacing outCollapse )

Thanks for being there for me community. You guys really are great :o)

Don't expect today to be a low-key and relaxing day, for your restlessness is likely get you up and going even if you stayed out late last night. Unfortunately, you could waste too much energy without really enjoying yourself. Instead of getting involved with distracting activities, try to accomplish something useful without taking on too much.

( serious fucked up rant, childhood abuse, sexual abuseCollapse )

I haven't posted here in awhile because things have been so hectic. It seemed like things were going so good for my friend.