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EMDR Therapy

Has anyone used this in counseling? Did it work? How did you feel about the process?

I'm starting this on one of my issues on Friday, and I'd like to get some feedback beforehand.

Thanks, Eden
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Looking for personal EMDR experiences

My therapist wants me to give EMDR a chance. I am not keen on the idea. I would like to know if anyone has first hand experience. At the moment we are simply doing what we can to keep me stable from week to week, but it is a holding action. It all seems a little hocus pocus to me.

I also put on the table that MDMA has been approved for PTSD treament. To be honest I'd rather try the drug route than EMDR.

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I just wanted to thank everyone who helped me the other day with the questions about the counselor. It really helped.

I saw my counselor for the first time today. I couldn't say that I was abused, but she knows. I'm okay with that; I just can't tell her myself yet. That'll come with time.

I think she's going to work out.

After going through all the introduction stuff, we did this one exercise that I found immensely helpful. It was this one thing with two buzzers that would take turns buzzing. I'd hold one in each hand, and close my eyes. She had me look at one of my memories. I didn't say it out loud though. She'd stop the buzzing after a while, and I'd open my eyes. She'd ask what sort of things I had noticed, then we'd go again, but this time, I'd just close my eyes and see what I'd visualize. At the end, I was in a completely different place. We visualized the memory again, and it had changed, in a sense.

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Does anyone know what this therapy is called? It was AMAZING.

One thing I am having trouble with is realizing that, as a six year old, it couldn't have possibly been my fault. Going back in memories, I seem so BIG... I don't realize that I am only six years old. I saw some of the neighborhood kids on the way home afterwards. They seemed small, and I know that some of them were older than six. They're so SMALL! I need to realize that I was that small, and could not have prevented it anyhow, therefore, it is not my fault at all.

Anyhow, besides that, I have a question... There were some "confidentiality breakers" mentioned, but, looking back, I realize I'm a bit unclear on one of them. Unfortunately, I don't remember the exact wording or anything, but I'll try my best...

It was something about the counselor being under authority by law to report to the law the abuser(s) if they were deemed to possibly abuse somebody else. So how exactly does that work? She can't do that unless I give names, right? You see, I don't want to get into a whole legal thing at all, or have my abusers prosecuted. I don't know why; I just really don't want that to happen. Can I basically tell everything, in detail, as long as I withold names? I don't want to say something and have it prompt legal action. But on the other hand, I don't want to have to be thinking about what I can and cannot say. The point of a counselor is to be able to tell them everything. How exactly does this work?

Sorry if that really made no sense; I'm pretty tired right now.

Again, THANK YOU to all who helped me the other day. You guys gave me the courage to TELL THE TRUTH.

-Rachel Grace
I wish I could cry without bleeding

Time,.. sometimes doesnt heal anything.Hides it well tho.

Hi..Im Jase, I'm..old. LOL I'm going through EMDR with a therapist right now. I remember what happened. I just didn't think it was wrong.Til now.
I have that daydream type problem too. Channel it into writing sometimes. But lately...Ive been frozen.
Walkin round the house in PJ's staying in bed.
Able to scrape enough motivation together to cook,wash dishes, bare minimum parenting and go to Squadron meetings.(Military based youth group my dad, son and I are in)*just noticed the order I put who in*

I get home and I retreat into inertia.Not working out, barely remembering to eat and shower, good thing everything but the rent is on auto pay.Havent done a damn thing with the car in this heat..needs oil changed badly. Im on disability for a major back injury and do freelance graphics to supplement. Im snarling at my kid, he doesnt deserve it. Im snarling at my dad...who does.

Things have gotten worse since I started the EMDR.

My partner,Angel, says its gonna get worse before it gets better..Gawd..if it gets any worse than this, I'm afraid Im going to do something permanent to myself.SO far..Ive been able to stop myself from injuring myself.THe impulse to pick up something and beat myself is very strong. Always the face. I used to have intense problems with it in my 20s.Now, its back.
Im not a danger to my kid. I'd die before I hurt him, so don't worry there.Grumping at him and hiding in my bedroom has been what Ive been doing.I'm going to tell him hes done nothing wrong....I should tell him that a lot. Just in case he feels its his fault..ya know??

If anyones not comfortable with me being here ..Ill go. Don't know where else to turn. I was raised not to show pain or talk about this stuff and feel kind of awkward talking about this stuff at my age.

Peace, and brownies.
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hi everyone...
today has been one of the hardest days in a long time, but also one of the most cleansing experiences of my life. i went to a therapy session today, with EMDR.

i wasn't nessicarily prepared to talk more about the rape that happend... but that is what we got into.

before i went... i typed a detailed description of exactly what happened that night. i guess i was hoping someone would read it and feel real sympathy for me. but i realized, that it was just to get everything out of me.

i will try and post that soon.
the description was so deatailed and graphic... that i started to remember, feel, and smell things that i hadn't remembered from that night.

i brought these memories to my therapist. we started the session.
emdr is a bit like hypnosis. once your into it... you just keep going. like a flood gate breaking open. triggering. Collapse )