im struggling alot, I have read alot of peoples amazing stories trying feel better about how I feel and for the most part I feel unworthy of telling my story as I havnt got all or most of the pieces and what I do have scare me or I get paranoid its my over active imagination and Im self seeking and looking for someone to blame. I have borderline personality disorder, Im 31, Irish and in alot of pain. I have started to see a therapist but the service is probably getting cut and I dont have health insurance. Im dissociating worse than ever and find it very hard to tune into whats real( cut for rant that may go anywhereCollapse )
very disorganised I apologise its my first attempt and im all over the place!