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12th-Sep-2010 09:13 pm - Thought-Stirring Post: Public Entry
angel
Discussion of anxiety.Collapse )

  • In what ways does anxiety play a (negative or positive) role in your life?
  • What kinds of coping mechanisms have you established to try to help you overcome your anxiety in different situations?
  • What are your goals regarding the anxiety you experience?
Bonus!
  • What is one big victory you've accomplished in spite of or in relation to your anxiety?
11th-Sep-2008 12:23 am(no subject)
So anxious. I don't know why. An anniversary is coming up and that's been kind of on my mind, but it's still 1.5 months away. It's just bothering me and I feel really uncomfortable right now and unsafe. I have so much going through my brain right now. I'm sorry to take up space in the community with my post.
2nd-Jul-2008 10:17 pm - what if i am wrong?
ophelia
i have been hesitant to write - which is a very strange thing for me :)

my biggest fear in situations like this, is an inadvertent "pimping" of another's pain or experience... deep within me, at my core, i have a sense of violation.  of a dirtiness so apart of me, it cannot be separated from anything i seek to say or do. 

but i have tried to be open and learn about the cause of this sullied place within me and as of this writing have found no source.
i remember certain things but these things remain nebulous... shadowy and so inexact, they fail description.

i want to say right here and right now that i KNOW SOMETHING HAPPENED TO ME....
because i feel it is true,

but i do not know.  not for sure.

my symptoms, and sensations and dissociative-altering triggers speak volumes about something only whispered.

can i possibly be a survivor of only a screwed up sense of memory?
a made up trauma/violation?

can what i fear and feel be anything but what i sense it to be?

i was afraid to take away from those who know they were made broken by claiming only an un-proveable sense of such brokenness. 
and if i have offended in anyway, please forgive me - truly.

xoxo
22nd-Apr-2008 04:04 pm - I Feel Dead Inside
bloodybear

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