Hey, I'm back! I spent... uh, well, actually, I'm just going to cut this whole entry for triggers OF: hospitalization, SI/suicidality [not graphic], child abuse, contact from parents, triggering songs, healing, therapy, The Bleed, endo, PCOS, etc. Also talks about religion, specifically Christianity. please do let me know if I missed one, it's... not a good day for me physically.

( In every loss in every lie In every truth that you'd deny And each regret and each goodbye was a mistake to great to hide And your voice was all I heard That I get what I deserve So give me reason to prove me wrong to wash this memory clean Let the floods cross the distance in your eyesCollapse )

I'm going to update you all on some of the stuff that has been going on with me and my so called life... It may be long, or short... but it goes where my mind goes, and I need to get this all out of my head.
(  Cut for-- Friend problems, family problems, mention of past rape and past abuse, brother getting out of jail, having a warrant go back out for my brothers arrest, mention of drugs, stressful situations, dealing with chronic pain, dealing with depression, dealing with suicide Ideas, and I think that is it... warn me if I missed anything.Collapse )
And that is all I've got to say on all this. I'm sorry if anyone actually read this. But props to you if you did.
With hope.
~a

Here's my story, kinda, I mean there's only so much I can type.  This doesn't even come close to really describing how horrific the scenes were.

I have an insane need to share my story. I've kept quiet about it long enough, and I'm bursting in need of support; people who know what I'm going through, people who care.

( Cut for Triggers: Abuse, Cutting, and a Suicide Attempt (plus its long)Collapse )