Tags: abuse: mental

Hey guys, I haven't been on in a while.. How is everybody?

Sorry I haven't been on much, I have a lot of catching up to do in this wonderful community now. I just am not sleeping tonight, and I was thinking. I think way too much sometimes, and other times, not enough.

10 years ago, even 5 years ago, even 1 or 2 years ago, if someone had told me this is what my life would be like now, I would have said they were insane.

But like holy crap.

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Okay, this has gone a bit off topic from what I started it as... what I started off say was I'm practically the opposite of what I had thought/hoped to be when I was a kid. 10 years ago, I never thought I'd date who I date, fuck who I fuck, do what I do for a living, spend time doing the things I do. Sometimes I can't get over how different it is, and I'm always either in awe or smiling, or both.

A LOT of llusions have been dispelled. Reality has hit me, sorta full force I guess.

Does anyone else feel the same way?
tomoe--did it for the lulz

why be an acting major when my life already has such drama?

I haven't really posted much, nor commented. But it's times like those of late that have me needing support from people who actually understand and not my best friend. For while he is great and understanding, I guess...I don't know.

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I don't know. It's just all piling in on me. I want to scream or cry but I can't. At least I haven't cut over this, which for me is an improvement. I just want it all to end because it's getting to the point where I'm not even caring about myself anymore, case in point in the issues at hand...I don't know. I just needed to vent or something. Sorry.
marie :)

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Hey, I'm new here. I hope to get to know some of you guys. :)

Basically, what happened to me [triggering, under the cut] happened when I was 9 until I was 11. I'm almost 16 now & I haven't spoken about it properly yet.

I told my Mum my 'secret' almost 3 years ago, & we made a statement to the police. They got back to me, after almost 3 years, last week. I got offered victim support which you are supposed to receive 1 week after submitting a statement. They also said they'd had an interview with him. & that he denied every last piece of it.

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Well, I guess that's my story. I'm sorry if it's long, & sounds really mixed up. But I just don't know how to talk about it, at all.