Tags: suicidal thoughts

Lain Arm

Depressed, question.

I just want to know...

I'm really depressed right now. I do not want to try to kill myself. I just want to numb myself. I never drink, not ever. But tonight I have a full bottle of vodka and it's looking rather tempting. I've had a hard time with losing my job and having the unemployment reject me. I am quite sad.

How bad is a mix of vodka, vicoden, valium and flexoril? One of each pill, low doseage... Will this be life threatening, vomit inducing or just make me pass the feck out? Any ideas? I'm trying to stop myself from cutting, but it's hard to fight the temptation now.

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I haven't posted here for months and months but I didn't know where else to go. My mind is spinning and I feel like I'm starting to lose it in a really serious way.

For the last few months I've been okay with all my childhood abuse stuff. Yeah, I've been really badly depressed and suicidal, but there's been no flashback or panic attacks and my nightmares have even eased off.

But now it's like everytime I close my eyes I'm freaking out. I can't sleept because I just end up panicing and crying. I'm always in tears and I'm scared that I'm just going to completly lose it.