I feel pretty incapable of making decisions by myself. I'm pretty sure that I need to get out though. I've written on him before, and even in an anonymous community I made him seem pretty nice, which is pointless.
So I got my tarot cards done today. Fucking accurate as hell about how he treats me and his demeanor towards me (he's controling, angry, we fight all the time, etc). The guy, who's known me for years asked me if I was on drugs or not eating right because I look like I've lost weight and don't look as healthy as I used to. The latter is true and I told him. I ended up crying a little bit a couple times during the session.
I made a pros and cons list about him. I had 11 pros and 22 cons.
( Collapse )
The problem with the concept of breaking up with him is that I still love him. =(
Why the fuck do I even care about this boy???