So for some reason...Im very stressed out tonight.
Only a few reasons I guess...
-Me and My boyfriend fell asleep today, I had a dream about my brother which is my abuser. It caught me off guard to say the least. But just another dream where he tries to kill me I guess.
-Me and the boyfriend had sex with no condom. Though ive been on the pill for 4 months or so, and he pulled out, its still very scary, im in no place to be a mother.
-May means AP exam. Which I havent studied for yet and its three weeks away.
-Wensday is a due date fir what turned out to be a 25 page assignment......on top of a group prject/presentation due tommorow.
-Therapist insists on pushing our app. back to a full month now, she says im doing great, but Im scared ill fall back to being suicidal. And ,y cutting has been non existant for months...
I hate crying nights.