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as i said in an earlier post, i was raped a few weeks ago. i was… 
10th-Apr-2007 09:21 am

as i said in an earlier post, i was raped a few weeks ago. i was with a friend and we are fairly certain that we were both drugged because we stupidly took open drinks and we blacked out at the same time and when i woke up one guy was raping me and his friend mike was raping my friend in the other room. we were still completely messed up at 4 in the afternoon the next day, and we didn't drink enough alcohol for that to happen. unfortunately we didn't go to the hospital to get tested for drugs, which i now regret.

yesterday i realized that i was no longer thinking about the rape constantly. and i wasn't scared of running into my rapist on campus anymore - i figured my campus has 30,000 students, what are the chances? i work at the campus library, and yesterday afternoon while i was putting away some books mike walked by. i saw him out of the corner of my eye and my heart started racing. he walked past me several times and kept staring at me. i walked to another section and he followed me. he walked up to me and started talking:
him: is your name christina by any chance?
me: no. [my name is caitlin, i didnt tell him that of course.]
him: i swear i know you from somewhere, i just can't put my finger on it.
me: no, i don't know you. i have to work now. [and i walked away.]

i nearly had a heart attack. luckily my shift was over right after that so i left and immediately called my friend and told her what happened. as we were talking he called her. meaning he must have remembered who i am, that's too much of a coincidence. she didn't answer, he called her again that night and she didn't answer. he'd called her several times before this and she had never answered. this guy obviously has no social skills because he doesn't realize that both of us want nothing to do with him. i am very scared that he knows where i work now because i'm afraid he or the guy who raped me will come to find me because they clearly are not getting the message. it brought back the images of the rape and now i feel sickened all over again.
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11th-Apr-2007 02:37 pm (UTC)
thanks. i'm asking my supervisor how to call security if he comes to see me again and if he does i'll have a security guard walk me home.
10th-Apr-2007 05:29 pm (UTC)
::big safe hugs:: I second the recommendation to look into a walk safe program (effectively, an escort from work to your dorm/car). It can be so scary to bump into someone like that, especially when it's unexpected.

Also, remember that it's okay to let your co-workers know that he's been bothering you, as they can sometimes head people off like that before they come and find you (I had a similar issue when I worked in a library, and they used to escort the person to the book they wanted, and made them stay in a visible area when they weren't getting a book)
11th-Apr-2007 02:38 pm (UTC)
yeah, i'm talking to my supervisor and security. and if he keeps bothering me he could be suspended from the library for inappropriate behavior. thanks for the hugs :)
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