Strange how this kind of thing can magnify what I am missing, but also solidly remind me of all the reasons I am with my partner and why I treasure us.
I also realized that my friend triggers my neurosis. I knew back when we first met that we'd never work. I still see it now. If we ever did date I think she would play on my emotional abuse scars way too much. It's amazing that I can calmly sit and discuss this with my partner
So how should I approach my friend? How do I reconscile the fact that I am attracted to my friend but logically don't want it, that I love my partner more than anything, but that I need more?
My partner brought up the idea of therapy last week. Thats one of the first times she has brought it up on her own. Maybe this could be a catalyst that help her find counselling.