TWO posts in one day?
Ok a little thing before I get right down to it.
This one is on Andrew, I do not need help as much as I need to,..I guess understand this. Things are changing, but not for worse at all. Its the exact opposite.
I trust him to figure this out. But I guess I need help to see both sides of it, mine and his, from an unbiased point of veiw.
Help me out guys? Any comments at all would be nice.
(kinda long...)
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Hey
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
You online?
Andrew.....Please? says:
heyy
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
That Sophia?
Andrew.....Please? says:
yeah
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Sorry I haven't been online lately. Either been out or studying. That or sleeping, I can barely stay awake these days for some reason.
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
And to add insult to injury someone nicked my phone
Andrew.....Please? says:
thats why you never picked up for me?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
that or I lost it, but I dunno where
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Have yo been calling me?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
*you
Andrew.....Please? says:
yeah
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Well then yeah, that'd be why.
Andrew.....Please? says:
ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I'm going to the leisure centre tonight for jujitsu.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Thats where I def. last had my phone, I may have 'lost' it there. Someone may even have handed it in, but my hopes arent high.
Andrew.....Please? says:
alright
Andrew.....Please? says:
I lost my phone in another state adn got it back
Andrew.....Please? says:
so dont worry
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How did you manage that?
Andrew.....Please? says:
when I went to Chicago for my Major, I lost there in the city
Andrew.....Please? says:
and they gave it ot the place I was at. who contacted my school and I got it baxl
Andrew.....Please? says:
*back
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Kool
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*Cool
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Happy Anniversary
Andrew.....Please? says:
lol
Andrew.....Please? says:
you to
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Andrew.....Please? says:
cam?
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OK. Im still in my pyjammas tho.
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok
Andrew.....Please? says:
I look fucking gross anyway
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Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
ditto that for me
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Your hair is red
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ish
Andrew.....Please? says:
yes it is
Andrew.....Please? says:
and short
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rediishy black
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I like it
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especially swept to the side like that
Andrew.....Please? says:
eww
Andrew.....Please? says:
i look emo
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yeah, you kinda do
Andrew.....Please? says:
ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
then again so do I
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I just heard my dad proclaim that hell never forget 'whatsis name?'
Andrew.....Please? says:
?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Well I found it amusing
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
euch
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I still have that horrible gross feeling on my skin you get after drinking alcohol
Andrew.....Please? says:
Im sorry for last time
Andrew.....Please? says:
we talked?
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ah
Andrew.....Please? says:
remember
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I'm sorry to.
Andrew.....Please? says:
what was wrong?
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It's just
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That was pissing me off royally.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Your torturing yourself like every day
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and then you let the fact that some girl called you a whore depress you furtgher
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A girl you didnt even care about
Andrew.....Please? says:
about that
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It was a piss reason to be depressed
Andrew.....Please? says:
not really
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Yes really
Andrew.....Please? says:
Andrew Ive spent years trying to rid myself of that word
Andrew.....Please? says:
you know how long ive tried to get that out of my head
Andrew.....Please? says:
and to have somme girl who I dont even know label me that
Andrew.....Please? says:
its a fucking smack in the face
Andrew.....Please? says:
its like...damn she doesnt even know me adn I get that?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Every girl calls some other girl that at one point.
Andrew.....Please? says:
I actually left her a mesdage
Andrew.....Please? says:
and I said If you call me a whore one more time, we will have more problems than we do now Elizabeth. I promis you this.
Andrew.....Please? says:
And she has not once called me a whore since
Andrew.....Please? says:
so I scared her
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yeah but it depressed you
Andrew.....Please? says:
yes very much
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
name calling isnt a reason to be depressed
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
not a real reaoson anyway
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even if that name plagues you
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Your made of stronger stuff than that
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so seeing something so trivial affect you so badly
Andrew.....Please? says:
it wasnt just that babe
Andrew.....Please? says:
Katie was in a car accident
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It pissed me off to no end
Andrew.....Please? says:
on xmas eve
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Its like 'Are you just looking for any excuse to deny yourself being happy? Being called a whore is such an immature teenage thing to be depressed about'
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
sorry 1 sec, my dads yelling.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
sorry
Andrew.....Please? says:
np
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dinner, but I cant eat cause Im going to jujitsu tonight
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
so I just grabbed an apple
Andrew.....Please? says:
^
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so thats why I kinda lost it
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
but its not just that
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Everytime I see you, your in the dark, wearing black etc.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Noone xcould be happy in those conditions
Andrew.....Please? says:
wearing black does not make me depressed
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
its like your setting yourself up to be depressed
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
no but sitting in the dark will
Andrew.....Please? says:
im not in the dark
Andrew.....Please? says:
not now
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half the time ive been talking to you lately your in a closet or something
Andrew.....Please? says:
both of my windows are open
Andrew.....Please? says:
no im not
Andrew.....Please? says:
imlways in this spot
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I saw coats around you
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even now your room looks very dark
Andrew.....Please? says:
I have my cam set that way
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
oh
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
lighten it please?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
You make me lighten mine
Andrew.....Please? says:
ugh hold on
Andrew.....Please? says:
ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
its the same
Andrew.....Please? says:
issues with how the cam is tilted
Andrew.....Please? says:
ANyway
Andrew.....Please? says:
no katie was in a car accident
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and I had found out that day
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I told you it wasnt just that
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Sophia I feel like the biggest penis that ever existed
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
is she ok?
Andrew.....Please? says:
no
Andrew.....Please? says:
shes not hurt physcailly
Andrew.....Please? says:
but shes not acting the same at all
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
like what?
Andrew.....Please? says:
shes all depressed. She wont stop sleeping or come out of her house
Andrew.....Please? says:
I treid to get her to go shopping with me but she wouldnt
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
post traumatic stress
Andrew.....Please? says:
idk
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you should go over to her house and just hang with her
Andrew.....Please? says:
And, than on top of that
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my sister was taken to the hospital
Andrew.....Please? says:
she stopped breating
Andrew.....Please? says:
*breathing
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
why are you laughing?!
Andrew.....Please? says:
becuase I feel bad for saying this
Andrew.....Please? says:
cuz its makng you feel bad
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
HOLY SHIT
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
CAPITAL LETTERS ARGH
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Sophia
Andrew.....Please? says:
shes ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I just found out Im the biggest selfinf bastard in a century and you feel bad for making me feel bad?
Andrew.....Please? says:
yeah...
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No it isnt
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I feel like a right cock
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
i dont deserve that
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Is your sis gonna be ok?
Andrew.....Please? says:
yeah
Andrew.....Please? says:
shes fine
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
what happened?
Andrew.....Please? says:
we were both sick at the same time
Andrew.....Please? says:
we were sick for like..2 months
Andrew.....Please? says:
but I got better
Andrew.....Please? says:
she didnt
Andrew.....Please? says:
She got worse
Andrew.....Please? says:
her throat decided to close so it made it ahrd for her to breath
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
what did you two have?
Andrew.....Please? says:
but it didnt stop getting worse adn she stopped breathing and went and freaked out trying to tell me mom so she took her to the hospital, they gave her a shot to make it stop adn she takes meds now
Andrew.....Please? says:
which makes her really tired so she sleeps all day
Andrew.....Please? says:
they want her to go itno teh hospital but my sister is afraid to. She is scared of hospitals
Andrew.....Please? says:
so she just sleeps all day
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
she has to go
Andrew.....Please? says:
my mom wont make her
Andrew.....Please? says:
shes getting better
Andrew.....Please? says:
idk
Andrew.....Please? says:
But thats why, all the shit with Jimmy and Liz, my sister, Katie, and missing you like crazy all in one day
Andrew.....Please? says:
to much
Andrew.....Please? says:
to much all at once
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Sophia Im sorry
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
but.why didnt you start with friend in car crash and sister in hospital?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
why a girl calling you names?
Andrew.....Please? says:
idk
Andrew.....Please? says:
i guess i didnt know what to say anout the other two
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok Andrew
Andrew.....Please? says:
I love you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
no it isnt
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I just cant stand seeing you depressed
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
crying when noone deserves more to laugh
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
feeling hurt when you should feel safe and loved
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and I lost it when i thought you wree doing it to yourself
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Im sorry, I should have got the whole story
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No its not
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
fuck
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Im on a roll with us lately
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I dont deserve it
Andrew.....Please? says:
to bad
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I dont desrve you
Andrew.....Please? says:
do not say no to me!
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
m so sorry
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No it isnt
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Im ever there for you when you need me
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
its just me making excuses, and flipping out with you whenever i am there
Andrew.....Please? says:
its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No it isnt
Andrew.....Please? says:
what do you expect us to do?
Andrew.....Please? says:
we live on opposite sides of the worl
Andrew.....Please? says:
d
Andrew.....Please? says:
neither you or I can have it the way we want
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
im still a dick
Andrew.....Please? says:
ur human
Andrew.....Please? says:
ur Andrew and I love you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I dont deserve your love
Andrew.....Please? says:
you deserve more than me
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
dont say things like that
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
they arent true
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I wont let anyone put you down, even you
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dont worry about it
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im fine
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Yeah you look like the happiest girl in the world
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I miss you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I miss you
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Theres no magic without you
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look at this
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this is ..today...2 years
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I can finally say
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next year
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I come see you
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next year is you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Holy Shit....thats terrifying
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
i gotta hit the gym
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ill kill you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
no you wont
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ur perfect
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
that eyebrow thing was perfect
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
your perfect
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
*you're
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(shame on me)
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Andrew honestly though
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I love you. I love YOU. no one eles
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you are...amazing
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No im not
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es you are
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
No
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Not yet
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?
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Maybe one day I will be
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These days im the weakest link
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its ok
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Remember in the summer
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just before school
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when I lost pretty much everything
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and I would cry all the time saying how I didnt know how I was getting up everyday
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when I was at my worst with being suicidal
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Andrew you seriously are the reason I can sit here
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if I didnt have u two
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i would not be here
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you two gave me everything back
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
you did it
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
like I said
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Im pretty much just text on a screen
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no
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You did it all yourself
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no
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your that butterfly feeling
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your what makes me sleep
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your what makes me smile
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funny, your what keeps me up
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*you're
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your everything
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Andrew you taught me how to live again
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im so greatful to you
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you both help me stay alive and give me a reason to hope
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I love you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I love you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I'm sorry
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I'll try to be better
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its ok
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you cant be strongest all the time
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its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
sorry my sis came in to model her new designer wellies
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its ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
but getting back
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One look form you and my heart stops beating
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Look Sophia
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I don't think I deserve you. I seem to have lost myself, and what I still have is stuck. It's not enough anymore, those times have passed. I'm gonna try to learn from my mistakes and become the guy I should be. For you.
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its like things have changed
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not bad
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at all
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but our roles have changed
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its like your at where I was 2 years ago
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I love you Andrew, you have done nothing wrong. You are more than I could ahve asked of anyone
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I dont know how you could get any better
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Trust me when i say i can
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
In almost every way
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I'm not even the kid I was two years ago.
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i know your not
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Even he was more deserving than me.
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ive seen the change
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What i am these days.
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It's not befitting.
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I dont worry. You will find your way. You always do. What I worry about is being pushed away.
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I know I could do it to you, and I know its just as strong from you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I'm weak, lazy, childish, angry, resentful and selfish.
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no
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I'm gonna start trying to grow up.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
It's about time I did.
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i think your pushing yourself way beyond what you should
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Sophia
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I'm not saying these things
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Cause I need reassurance, or your support. I'm saying them cause they're the truth and they need to be said.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I've noticed it for a while now.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Thank you.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
You've helped me, more than you can know. You've let me see what I've been doing, and why it must stop.
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what exactly do you not like
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
About what? Myself?
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yeah
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I've been so quick to anger lately. I've been selfish, to the point where I stopped caring about others. I've been holding grudges. I've been lazy, shirking responsibilities. Then bitching about these facts.
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Trying to pass the blame onto someone else
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and feeling sorry for myself when I couldn't.
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ok
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
ok
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you have not been this way to me
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I trust you
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to figure it out
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you have all the time in the worl
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d
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it took me 10 years
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
ok
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and your help
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I have to go now
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Sophia I love you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
so much
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I love you to
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Thank you
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
Sweet dreams
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when will u be on next?
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I'm not sure. Soon.
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this is my last day of break
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i go abck to school tomorro
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w
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
k
Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:
I really have to go
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k
It seems our positions have changed. When he first met me, I was a mess. I was struggling to stay alive, though he is not exactly at that low of a point, he is struggling and I can see that.
He was so strong for me. He helped me so much I cant even explain. Im alive becuase of him.
But now its like we have opposite roles.
Anyone?
Now that he's having a hard time, and sinking into depression and feeling bad, it's okay for you to need to remind him of his own advice. Sometimes the best supporters wear themselves out and need help getting back up