Live(Laugh)Art (sxe_beauty) wrote in _survivors_,
Live(Laugh)Art
sxe_beauty
_survivors_

TWO posts in one day?

Ok a little thing before I get right down to it.
This one is on Andrew, I do not need help as much as I need to,..I guess understand this. Things are changing, but not for worse at all. Its the exact opposite.

I trust him to figure this out. But I guess I need help to see both sides of it, mine and his, from an unbiased point of veiw.

Help me out guys? Any comments at all would be nice.

(kinda long...)

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Hey

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

You online?

Andrew.....Please? says:

heyy

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

That Sophia?

Andrew.....Please? says:

yeah

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sorry I haven't been online lately. Either been out or studying. That or sleeping, I can barely stay awake these days for some reason.

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

And to add insult to injury someone nicked my phone

Andrew.....Please? says:

thats why you never picked up for me?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

that or I lost it, but I dunno where

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Have yo been calling me?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

*you

Andrew.....Please? says:

yeah

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Well then yeah, that'd be why.

Andrew.....Please? says:

ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm going to the leisure centre tonight for jujitsu.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Thats where I def. last had my phone, I may have 'lost' it there. Someone may even have handed it in, but my hopes arent high.

Andrew.....Please? says:

alright

Andrew.....Please? says:

I lost my phone in another state adn got it back

Andrew.....Please? says:

so dont worry

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

How did you manage that?

Andrew.....Please? says:

when I went to Chicago for my Major, I lost there in the city

Andrew.....Please? says:

and they gave it ot the place I was at. who contacted my school and I got it baxl

Andrew.....Please? says:

*back

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Kool

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

*Cool

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Happy Anniversary

Andrew.....Please? says:

lol

Andrew.....Please? says:

you to

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Andrew.....Please? says:

cam?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

OK. Im still in my pyjammas tho.

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok

Andrew.....Please? says:

I look fucking gross anyway

 

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Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

ditto that for me

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Your hair is red

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

ish

Andrew.....Please? says:

yes it is

Andrew.....Please? says:

and short

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

rediishy black

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I like it

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

especially swept to the side like that

Andrew.....Please? says:

eww

Andrew.....Please? says:

i look emo

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

yeah, you kinda do

Andrew.....Please? says:

ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

then again so do I

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I just heard my dad proclaim that hell never forget 'whatsis name?'

Andrew.....Please? says:

?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Well I found it amusing

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

euch

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I still have that horrible gross feeling on my skin you get after drinking alcohol

Andrew.....Please? says:

Im sorry for last time

Andrew.....Please? says:

we talked?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

ah

Andrew.....Please? says:

remember

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm sorry to.

Andrew.....Please? says:

what was wrong?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

It's just

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

That was pissing me off royally.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Your torturing yourself like every day

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

and then you let the fact that some girl called you a whore depress you furtgher

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

A girl you didnt even care about

Andrew.....Please? says:

about that

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

It was a piss reason to be depressed

Andrew.....Please? says:

not really

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Yes really

Andrew.....Please? says:

Andrew Ive spent years trying to rid myself of that word

Andrew.....Please? says:

you know how long ive tried to get that out of my head

Andrew.....Please? says:

and to have somme girl who I dont even know label me that

Andrew.....Please? says:

its a fucking smack in the face

Andrew.....Please? says:

its like...damn she doesnt even know me adn I get that?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Every girl calls some other girl that at one point.

Andrew.....Please? says:

I actually left her a mesdage

Andrew.....Please? says:

and I said If you call me a whore one more time, we will have more problems than we do now Elizabeth. I promis you this.

Andrew.....Please? says:

And she has not once called me a whore since

Andrew.....Please? says:

so I scared her

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

yeah but it depressed you

Andrew.....Please? says:

yes very much

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

name calling isnt a reason to be depressed

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

not a real reaoson anyway

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

even if that name plagues you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Your made of stronger stuff than that

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

so seeing something so trivial affect you so badly

Andrew.....Please? says:

it wasnt just that babe

Andrew.....Please? says:

Katie was in a car accident

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

It pissed me off to no end

Andrew.....Please? says:

on xmas eve

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Its like 'Are you just looking for any excuse to deny yourself being happy? Being called a whore is such an immature teenage thing to be depressed about'

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

sorry 1 sec, my dads yelling.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

sorry

Andrew.....Please? says:

np

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

dinner, but I cant eat cause Im going to jujitsu tonight

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

so I just grabbed an apple

Andrew.....Please? says:

^

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

so thats why I kinda lost it

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

but its not just that

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Everytime I see you, your in the dark, wearing black etc.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Noone xcould be happy in those conditions

Andrew.....Please? says:

wearing black does not make me depressed

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

its like your setting yourself up to be depressed

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

no but sitting in the dark will

Andrew.....Please? says:

im not in the dark

Andrew.....Please? says:

not now

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

half the time ive been talking to you lately your in a closet or something

Andrew.....Please? says:

both of my windows are open

Andrew.....Please? says:

no im not

Andrew.....Please? says:

imlways in this spot

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I saw coats around you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

even now your room looks very dark

Andrew.....Please? says:

I have my cam set that way

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

oh

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

lighten it please?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

You make me lighten mine

Andrew.....Please? says:

ugh hold on

Andrew.....Please? says:

ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

its the same

Andrew.....Please? says:

issues with how the cam is tilted

Andrew.....Please? says:

ANyway

Andrew.....Please? says:

no katie was in a car accident

Andrew.....Please? says:

and I had found out that day

Andrew.....Please? says:

I told you it wasnt just that

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sophia I feel like the biggest penis that ever existed

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

is she ok?

Andrew.....Please? says:

no

Andrew.....Please? says:

shes not hurt physcailly

Andrew.....Please? says:

but shes not acting the same at all

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

like what?

Andrew.....Please? says:

shes all depressed. She wont stop sleeping or come out of her house

Andrew.....Please? says:

I treid to get her to go shopping with me but she wouldnt

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

post traumatic stress

Andrew.....Please? says:

idk

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

you should go over to her house and just hang with her

Andrew.....Please? says:

And, than on top of that

Andrew.....Please? says:

my sister was taken to the hospital

Andrew.....Please? says:

she stopped breating

Andrew.....Please? says:

*breathing

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

why are you laughing?!

Andrew.....Please? says:

becuase I feel bad for saying this

Andrew.....Please? says:

cuz its makng you feel bad

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

HOLY SHIT

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

CAPITAL LETTERS ARGH

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sophia

Andrew.....Please? says:

shes ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I just found out Im the biggest selfinf bastard in a century and you feel bad for making me feel bad?

Andrew.....Please? says:

yeah...

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No it isnt

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I feel like a right cock

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

i dont deserve that

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Is your sis gonna be ok?

Andrew.....Please? says:

yeah

Andrew.....Please? says:

shes fine

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

what happened?

Andrew.....Please? says:

we were both sick at the same time

Andrew.....Please? says:

we were sick for like..2 months

Andrew.....Please? says:

but I got better

Andrew.....Please? says:

she didnt

Andrew.....Please? says:

She got worse

Andrew.....Please? says:

her throat decided to close so it made it ahrd for her to breath

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

what did you two have?

Andrew.....Please? says:

but it didnt stop getting worse adn she stopped breathing and went and freaked out trying to tell me mom so she took her to the hospital, they gave her a shot to make it stop adn she takes meds now

Andrew.....Please? says:

which makes her really tired so she sleeps all day

Andrew.....Please? says:

they want her to go itno teh hospital but my sister is afraid to. She is scared of hospitals

Andrew.....Please? says:

so she just sleeps all day

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

she has to go

Andrew.....Please? says:

my mom wont make her

Andrew.....Please? says:

shes getting better

Andrew.....Please? says:

idk

Andrew.....Please? says:

But thats why, all the shit with Jimmy and Liz, my sister, Katie, and missing you like crazy all in one day

Andrew.....Please? says:

to much

Andrew.....Please? says:

to much all at once

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sophia Im sorry

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

but.why didnt you start with friend in car crash and sister in hospital?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

why a girl calling you names?

Andrew.....Please? says:

idk

Andrew.....Please? says:

i guess i didnt know what to say anout the other two

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok Andrew

Andrew.....Please? says:

I love you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

no it isnt

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I just cant stand seeing you depressed

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

crying when noone deserves more to laugh

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

feeling hurt when you should feel safe and loved

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

and I lost it when i thought you wree doing it to yourself

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Im sorry, I should have got the whole story

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No its not

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

fuck

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Im on a roll with us lately

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I dont deserve it

Andrew.....Please? says:

to bad

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I dont desrve you

Andrew.....Please? says:

do not say no to me!

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

m so sorry

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No it isnt

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Im ever there for you when you need me

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

its just me making excuses, and flipping out with you whenever i am there

Andrew.....Please? says:

its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No it isnt

Andrew.....Please? says:

what do you expect us to do?

Andrew.....Please? says:

we live on opposite sides of the worl

Andrew.....Please? says:

d

Andrew.....Please? says:

neither you or I can have it the way we want

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

im still a dick

Andrew.....Please? says:

ur human

Andrew.....Please? says:

ur Andrew and I love you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I dont deserve your love

Andrew.....Please? says:

you deserve more than me

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

dont say things like that

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

they arent true

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I wont let anyone put you down, even you

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dont worry about it

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im fine

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Yeah you look like the happiest girl in the world

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I miss you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I miss you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Theres no magic without you

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look at this

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this is ..today...2 years

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I can finally say

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next year

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I come see you

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next year is you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Holy Shit....thats terrifying

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

i gotta hit the gym

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ill kill you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

no you wont

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ur perfect

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

that eyebrow thing was perfect

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

your perfect

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

*you're

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

(shame on me)

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Andrew honestly though

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I love you. I love YOU. no one eles

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you are...amazing

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No im not

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es you are

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

No

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Not yet

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?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Maybe one day I will be

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

These days im the weakest link

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its ok

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Remember in the summer

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just before school

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when I lost pretty much everything

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and I would cry all the time saying how I didnt know how I was getting up everyday

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when I was at my worst with being suicidal

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Andrew you seriously are the reason I can sit here

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if I didnt have u two

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i would not be here

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you two gave me everything back

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

you did it

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

like I said

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Im pretty much just text on a screen

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no

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

You did it all yourself

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no

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your that butterfly feeling

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your what makes me sleep

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your what makes me smile

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

funny, your what keeps me up

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

*you're

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your everything

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Andrew you taught me how to live again

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im so greatful to you

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you both help me stay alive and give me a reason to hope

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I love you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I love you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm sorry

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'll try to be better

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its ok

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you cant be strongest all the time

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its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

sorry my sis came in to model her new designer wellies

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its ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

but getting back

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

One look form you and my heart stops beating

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Look Sophia

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I don't think I deserve you. I seem to have lost myself, and what I still have is stuck. It's not enough anymore, those times have passed. I'm gonna try to learn from my mistakes and become the guy I should be. For you.

says:

its like things have changed

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not bad

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at all

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but our roles have changed

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its like your at where I was 2 years ago

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I love you Andrew, you have done nothing wrong. You are more than I could ahve asked of anyone

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I dont know how you could get any better

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Trust me when i say i can

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

In almost every way

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm not even the kid I was two years ago.

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i know your not

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Even he was more deserving than me.

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ive seen the change

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

What i am these days.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

It's not befitting.

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I dont worry. You will find your way. You always do. What I worry about is being pushed away.

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I know I could do it to you, and I know its just as strong from you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm weak, lazy, childish, angry, resentful and selfish.

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no

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm gonna start trying to grow up.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

It's about time I did.

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i think your pushing yourself way beyond what you should

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sophia

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm not saying these things

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Cause I need reassurance, or your support. I'm saying them cause they're the truth and they need to be said.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I've noticed it for a while now.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Thank you.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

You've helped me, more than you can know. You've let me see what I've been doing, and why it must stop.

says:

what exactly do you not like

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

About what? Myself?

says:

yeah

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I've been so quick to anger lately. I've been selfish, to the point where I stopped caring about others. I've been holding grudges. I've been lazy, shirking responsibilities. Then bitching about these facts.

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Trying to pass the blame onto someone else

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

and feeling sorry for myself when I couldn't.

says:

ok

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

ok

says:

you have not been this way to me

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I trust you

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to figure it out

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you have all the time in the worl

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d

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it took me 10 years

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

ok

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and your help

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I have to go now

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sophia I love you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

so much

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I love you to

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Thank you

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

Sweet dreams

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when will u be on next?

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I'm not sure. Soon.

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this is my last day of break

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i go abck to school tomorro

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w

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

k

Will I ever stop feeling tired? says:

I really have to go

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k


It seems our positions have changed. When he first met me, I was a mess. I was struggling to stay alive, though he is not exactly at that low of a point, he is struggling and I can see that.
He was so strong for me. He helped me so much I cant even explain. Im alive becuase of him.

But now its like we have opposite roles.

Anyone?
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