painstainedeyes (painstainedeyes) wrote in _survivors_,


I'm so happy.. which is a first for a long time! I get to see my boyfriend today when I go to my mother's house in Rockland. He is going to be there around 4:30 so we can get our Christmas pictures taken with each other... I talked to him on the phone last night for like a half hour. He told me he had something for me that held a special place in his heart, and I deserved to have it because I held a special place in his heart too. =) Then I told him to tell me what it was and he said ti was a surprise and then accidentally while trying to tease me with un-guessable hints accidentally said it was a ring.. (not an engagement ring, I'm only 17 helll no I'm not getting engaged! lol) but then he said there was something else to go with it but he wouldn't give me any type of hints or clues because he didn't want to ruin the rest of my surprise... I am so happy, Bryan is the best boyfriend anyone could have... He's been my friend since I was 13, he knows all about my past with my physical/sexual abuse, rapes, and drug and alcohol history... He is so understanding too... and I know he is sincere, I just have that feeling... it's different from other boyfriends in the past (which I've only had like 3 or 4 all together) where they say I love you after your first hour together... and then just to get in your pants. We talk about that stuff and both agreed we wanted to wait to say anything like that, or do anything like that. We want our relationship to be special, sex and love brings too much drama into relationships and I hate drama as well as he does. It's going to suck in about a month or two... I guess I missed a lot with him, because he went to bootcamp like last summer... that was when I had lost contact with him, I hadn't known he'd already went I thought he had to wait until he was 18 and graduated, but I guess not he went in through some program where you go the summer before your senior year then and go through bootcamp and school while you are there and then you come back and are basically done.. because he just graduated like 2 1/2months ago... So, when he gets his liscence in about 1 to 2 months he is going to become active in the Army National Guard.. First he is going to start out as a truck driver for the Guard, and then move his way up... oh I'm sooo happy... When I can I will get our pictures up ... <3  with love, me
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