and this might sound silly, but i caught his scent, that scent he always has when he'd come to my place after work, the 'sven smell' and i just couldnt handle it. it reminded me of all the great times we had it was like i was heartbroken all over again. i just want to know that he did love me, and i wasnt living a lie.
i want him back, i really truly do, ive thought about it and he is all i want. call me crazy, but i know who he really is, and he wasnt being himself. not at all.
and now i cant eat or sleep or just be. the cutest thing happened though, after he left and i was in target with Tom and Laura, Tom wrote 'i love katho' on a magnadoodle. awww. i love my friends.
how do i tell him how i feel without him walking away?
i just can't help but love him... and its not just attached to the sex at all anymore, its real. this sucks.