earthygirrl (earthygirrl) wrote in _survivors_,


This really sucks!!

I'm working in my workbook right now and I realize now more than ever that I hardly ever feel anything.  Yeah. I know I'm sad or angry or happy. But outside of those emotions I don't feel. I'm naming my abuser in the book and my father (whom I think might have).  I feel energy boiling inside of me...but on the outside I'm nuetral. I know I'm feeling so much more than I let on and it's a pain in the ass that I can't even label them let alone feel them!  I want to feel. I want to know I can feel. It makes feel like I'm dead being like this......

Please tell me I'll be able to feel someday......

How'd you work it out....

Tags: emotional numbing
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