i don't know how to start this so as more days go on the more stuff happens and the more things that are said
so i was talking to my boy friend today and of course he got talking about sex again but this time it was about wanting to titty fuck me i didn't even know what to say to this i was just taken back then he kept saying he's horny and i need to find a ride out to his place now which i said no which pissed him off then i asked hime "if there was a gurl there right now besides me would you fuck her"? he said hell ya i was just like i see then he says i need to do something for him right now i knew what he was talking about (phone sex) which i don't do i'm not like that so i was like no and we got into the hole no yes thing again which just got him more mad he said some more hurtful things that i just sat there and let him say (stupid just how i am) then we got talking about camping again he's like you better come and pick me up tomorrow i wanna see you so you better be here (i don't got a licsence)so i was like i don't know if i can what does he say well you better i don't care if you have to take the car i wanna see for we can cuddle and fuck i said i can't i have my thing he says i don't care i'll still fuck you and by the end of the conversation i was pissed and he wanted me to let him go so he kept saying i love you i wouldn't say it back all i did was go mmhmm sure he got pissed started raising his voice saying say it say it damn it i wouldn't respond he kept getting louder and to the point where he was like screaming at me so right as he hung up on me i said love you well knowing me i hate ending a conversation on a bad note so i called back an he picked up i told him i loved him he's like good thats what i thought he also said i'm going to be calling you at like 10 you better pick up your phone i said ok love you he said bye and i hung up
i don't understand why i'm doing this to myself i always end up putting myself in these position why am i so stupid even after seeing that it's unhealthy i'm still in it.........
i'm sorry that i told like the hole conversation like word for word but i need to get it out of my head for it doesn't repeat over and over in my head like a broken record player