I BROKE THE SILENCE!!!
You guys all know just how important that is - a real step in healing. I guess I'm just really amazed that I could actually go through with talking about it. You know I was worried about that yesterday.
So... let's see. It was kind of awkward at first, knowing that whatever was said would inevitably lead to a discussion that I was afraid to have.
I finally decided to write it out and show it to my friend. I was doing pretty good... but then I got all emotional. I guess I knew that would happen. :) Oh well. Guess what I found out? The friend of mine is also a survivor! I was not expecting that at all. WOW. That's all I can say, really.
I'm on a kind of emotional high/low right now, if that makes sense. It's all kind of... fresh again. But that's really okay right now.