well, my engagment is going really well, except for a small hitch.
my parents dont know about my so-called-relative and what he did to me, so they want him at the wedding. there is no bloody way he is going to spoil my day of days. i dont want them to know what he did, but i dont want him at the wedding, watching me with those sick eyes of his, making me feel so dirty. it will ruin my whole day, and i dont want Scotty to have to deal with all my shit either. so im very anxious at the moment, struggling to find a happy medium, trying to decide if i should let it all out.
im also going to the doctor in two days... i think i might be pregnant. *sigh* i know this sounds really awful, but god i hope not, i cant deal with that right now.