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Today was my friend Dustin's Wake/Funeral, I went there to pay my… 
9th-May-2006 10:04 am
Dan/Emma trl ;; actors
Today was my friend Dustin's Wake/Funeral, I went there to pay my respect's to the family.

I was waiting in line with Brandon when I saw him. Trevor with his friends I felt tears swelling in my eyes and flashback's kept springing up. How he held me down and took the one thing I could ever truely call my own. He saw me and smiled and nudged his friends I grabbed Brandon's shirt he shrugged me off and was like get over it.

Than he walked away to go flirt with some girl.

I stood there trying not to cry. Than Trevor brushed passed me and I just stiffened he stopped talked to his friend while looking at me he raised his eye brows and I ran over to Brandon. I told him I couldn't do this and he's like than go as he wrote down the girls number.

I cried the whole way home.
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9th-May-2006 09:35 am (UTC)
:*( im so sorry darling. brandons an asshole, you deserve much better friends than that. are you still here, i can talk to you if you'd like to talk to someone. sending love and kindness your way. *safe gentle hugs, if you'll have them*
9th-May-2006 10:03 am (UTC)
That is completely horrible. I can't imagine how scared and alone that must have made you feel. Brandon sounds like a horrible friend. You deserve better. I hope you at least feel a little better. I'm so sorry that happened to you.
9th-May-2006 11:20 am (UTC)
::big hugs:: I'm sorry you had to encounter him at such an emotionally vulnerable place. Try to remember - your virginity has *nothing* to do with stealing. Ever. Yes, he physically had sex with you... but your virginity is only ever something you can give away - you give away your virginity with love and trust... not because someone decided they wanted it.

It's okay to reclaim that, even if anatomically speaking you're now lacking the piece of internal skin that determines virginity. Women horseback riders often break that piece of skin without ever having sex... it's still *your* choice who you give that to.
9th-May-2006 01:28 pm (UTC)
That sucks!!! I am so sorry. You should never speak to that brandon guy again, either. Anyone picking up girls at a funeral wouldn't be worth knowing anyway, but in this case it was just adding insult to injury. You deserve much better people in your life.

I hope you can do something to create some safety for yourself after that damaging experience. I like burning sage, playing calming music, and taking a bath.
9th-May-2006 06:51 pm (UTC)
That's horrible! Your friend Brandon doesn't sound like much of a friend. You don't need anyone that cold hearted and callous in your life. You deserve much better friends than that!
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