I have not posted in a while on here. I am sorry I have been real busy and hurting a lot. I broke up with my boyfriend because he started acting like my abuser. I miscarried twins about a week ago. I have been in so much pain I still cannot cry. I don't know how to make it all go away. I want to be a normal person who isnt on ssi because she loses it at work if someone even looks at me wrong. I have been hating on myself and I know I shouldn't. I still wish for the days before I was attacked. I never seem to get over these thoughts of dying. My daughter is the only reason I am here. Well I don't have anything else to say.