I had to go to tmy primary doctor yesterday for an infection in my arm..eww. I updated them on the fact that I was taking birth control (even though I plan on stopping very soon). I was trying to get generic for my Loestrin 24 birth control or something similar to it but my doc said there wasn't a generic for it and that if my primary reason for taking BC is to clear up my skin, I should be taking Orthotricylen. She made out a prescription for it and said she would only make it for 3 months and that she wants me to get a pap smear.
My mom brought up that I don't use tampons and my doctor says, "If my 13 year old can do it, you can do it too." I have tried tampons in the past but since I have such issues with penetration...it just doesn't work.
I want to get the pap smear done, just in case there might be problems with my reproductive system I am unaware of but it seems like I am having a hard time finding someone who can be supportive. The nurse practitioner was pretty understanding, IMO. She offered Xanax but I wonder if it would be too much to ask for something stronger.
I was raped and molested as a child and I just can't handle penetration without having flashbacks of the events. I made note of the molestation and rape in my patient information for my nurse practitioner but it never came up when I tried to get the pap smear.
Does anyone have any tips on how I can bring this up to the nurse practitioner?
If there is any way I can be knocked out completely for the pap, I would prefer it because I just don't think a Xanax will be strong enough to control the involuntary contraction of my muscles in that area.