I don't even know how to word this..I joined this community awhile ago,had a long post about my past, but got frustrated w/ trying to post it..one day maybe..
so quick past history--when I was 3 or 4 my half brother abused me. I never thought it was anything but touching, but 6 months or so ago, had a dream of him raping me and i never dream about him and it felt so real. Here lays in the question--if this happened, would it mean my (sorry, don't know how else to put this and am really scared even posting and looking up technical terms just...sorry) cherry was popped
than? Questioning because I finally made love for the first time about 4 months ago and I obviously was um..lets just say it took a handful of times for it to no longer hurt and "completely pop"....can this happen twice or was my dream just a dream?? so confused
if someone could word this better, please just tell me and i'll change how it's posted...
(right now going to walk away before i delete it..not comfortable, but need to know..gah)