I know I haven't been around lately, but I am struggling. I know want to hurt in such a tangible way that makes sense. I know i am going to give in, I am just scared I can't be safe. I remember the touch, and the pain, and I can't take it. I am worse now than I have been in such a long time. I am not sure I will get through this. Why can't I give up?
I am sorry, I am worthless I get this.