At the moment conversations with mum have four possible tones:
1) Fight or near fight - may include high levels of anxiety, one or both of us crying, and yelling.
2) Triggering confrontation - nothing of note happens in a language use or tone of voice but one or both of us is severely tense/anxious/depressed afterwards
3) Productive conversation - the closest we ever get to communicating. I stay calm even while mum tries to push things. Sometimes things even get done this way.
4) Inconsequential chit chat - we are still both anxious that everything will go up in a big bang.
I'm not entirely sure why I'm thinking of these things possibly from working on interpersonal effectiveness and having spoken to mum yesterday. I felt it counted as 3) Productive conversation, although even that does not necessarily mean that I am listened to properly.
I don't think she said much that she hasn't said before. However I am concerned that she suggested that the nature of my mental and emotional health ties in with my learning disabilities rather than being a result of her abuse. I don't believe she is right but this attitude does need to be mentioned to my clinical psychologist. I doubt it occurred to her in her denial that she was being discriminatory.