artzgirl1987 (artzgirl1987) wrote in _survivors_,
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Just thought I would share.

Whisper


Catch me as I fall
Say you're here and it's all over now
Speaking to the atmosphere
No one's here and I fall into myself

This truth drives me
Into madness
I know I can stop the pain
If I will it all away
If I will it all away

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

I'm frightened by what I see
But somehow I know
That there's much more to come
Immobilized by my fear
And soon to be
Blinded by tears
I can stop the pain
If I will it all away

If I will it all away

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

Fallen angels at my feet
Whispered voices at my ear
Death before my eyes
Lying next to me I fear
She beckons me
Shall I give in
Upon my end shall I begin
Forsaking all I've fallen for
I rise to meet my end

Don't turn away
(Don't give in to the pain)
Don't try to hide
(Though they're screaming your name)
Don't close your eyes
(God knows what lies behind them)
Don't turn out the light
(Never sleep never die)

Don't turn away
Don't try to hide
Don't close your eyes
Don't turn out the light
(servatis a periculum servatis a maleficum)

Don't turn away
Don't try to hide
Don't close your eyes
Don't turn out the light
(servatis a periculum servatis a maleficum)

Imaginary

Paper flowers
I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops as they're falling tell a story

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Don't say I'm out of touch
With this rampant chaos your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me

Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light

In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me
(Paper flowers paper flowers)


I love Evanescence! Amy Lee's voice a songs are always amazing! There are probably my favorite. It's hard to pick though. Her songs speak to me a lot.

I'm in a kinda blah mood tonight too...

 I

had a talk with my dad last night about Will stuff, and hospital stuff. If he is ever in a vegitative state, and the doctors don't think he'll come back... or if he has bad brain damage... or anything happens to give him more discomfort than he already has... he wants ME to pull the plug. I dunno if I'm strong enough to do that. Even though I know that's what he would want me to do, I dunno if I could kill my father. Maybe it's selfish. I don't think I could live with it though. I would be doing a lot of "what if it wasn't the right time?" "what if he was going to come back today" What if, what if, what if...

My uncle is named second in the postion... I may have to ask him to take over.

Also... he told me how bad his Hepititis C really is. The doctors think he might've gotten it during this major surgery for his small bowel abstruction (small intestine twisted like a sausage and exploded). The doctors told him that he only has 3 - 6yrs if he doesn't accept the treatment for it. He doesn't want the treatment though, because it pretty much knocks you out for 3 - 4 days... and he would need it once a week. It isn't worth it to him.

It dawned on me today... he may never get to meet my children.

It's so depressing, and it makes me so sad. I needed to get it outta my system... but it's still here.  ::sigh::

I've been thinking about my sexual abuse stuff lately too. I rewrote about in one of the groups I'm in, and it's on my mind now. Stupid me... I shoulda kept it locked up...

I'm worried about Tursday too. Francis' court thing is Thursday. He thinks the charges will get dropped. I hope they do.  He's just getting his life together.

BLARG!
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