Sad thing is, I can't make those steps to make our friendship right again. I don't expect her to feel the same way about me, but right now it hurts so much that I can't even strike up a converasation with her. It's been months now, and she still talks to a mutual friend. All this time I've thought about the loss and the pain without making a connection to how I felt, and now I have made it it just makes everything worse.
I don't even know why we stopped talking. I can't pinpoint it.
Darling, you'll probably never read this, but I love you with every single beat of my heart, and I am so sorry for any pain or anger I've caused for you. Even if or when I get over this, there's always going to be a place inside of me for you.