I feel like absolute crap... I think there's a 50/50 chance on my dog either being completely fine or on the brink of death.
I've had this little boy for 7 years.. known him since he was a baby puppy. I was so fucking stupid thinking I could take in a dog not even thinking about the reality that he may die sooner than me.
I'm afraid to wake up tomorrow and find him dead... he's drinking water and stuff but he isn't eating.. if the universe is gonna try taking him from me can they did it in a way that isn't slow burning?? like just have him go out quick. I can't stand watching him suffer.
I'm really trying to resist the urge to harm myself rn but, first, I just can' t stand the idea of him not being in my life anymore..let alone dying in such a terrible way because of his intestinal issues..
He's my entire world. I have no siblings, no friends, my boyfriend and I are long distance so even though he's gonna help me go through this tonight and the next few days it's just so lonely...