I have now been with my Fiance (yes, ENGAGED😍 since june) for over 7 years now. We are living together, and planning our wedding!
I have since gained well over 50 lbs and have overcame my eating disorder. Of course i still have triggers, and issues here and there but im healthy now, for the most part.
I have since been diagnosed with Anxiety, Chronic depression, Bipolar 2 and a few other things that arent important at the moment.
It has now been i believe over 3 years since my last cut. This is the one im struggling with the absolute most as its a daily struggle. But im taking each day as it comes and making the best of it.
I am now the store manager of a major retail store. I fought for this position for 7 months and taught myself mostly everything.
The reason for posting this, is because i got a notification this morning that it was someones birthday coming up. Coming back and reading these posts..my very first post about hoping my eating disorder kills me, the toxic and abusive relationships i was in...none of it was worth it. I have grown and matured further than i ever wouldve thought possible. I never expected to be alive at this age. But i did it. I FUCKING DID IT. I overcame one of the absolute hardest parts of my life and reading my previous posts make me SO proud of myself.
To anyone out there who may stumble across my page, or if other people i used to speak to on here see this, i just want to say thank you for believing me when i didnt believe in myself. THANK YOU. You saved my life. If i overcame this, YOU CAN TOO. life DOES get better. You will one day become happy even if in the moment you feel like youre suffocating and need a way out. It took YEARS of therapy, inpatient hospitals, trial and error, gaining friends and losing them, for me to realize my value.
CHEERS TO 23 💕
Maybe ill be back, maybe i wont 💕