May 1st, 2005
Hey guys. I just want to say welcome to browneyed_girl1 and mmhindelan91 and thank you guys for joining. Promote us if you want.
I feel like a complete bitch for ignoring this community. I just thought, no one is joining so why write and why even promote it. What can I say I'm a loser.
I've been having a hard time recently. I've been depressed a lot and wanting to cut just about every night. I cut 2 stars on my wrist not to long ago and I just remember thinking that I wanted to do more....and more.....and more. Well we all know how that is. But of course I stopped myself in fear of what I would do since I was using a knife for the first time. It was hard to stop too.
I dont know whats all going on in my head. I'm so mixed up it isn't even funny. I just dont even want to wake up anymore. I hate feeling like this.
I just want to disappear.