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[Tuesday March 10, 2009 @ 7:54am]

in life, isn't it good to build yourself up in experience and talents growing and so forth... but aint some talents rare, doesn't an individuals soul posses talents of it's own perhaps specific or common yeah ponder I do

[Saturday May 03, 2008 @ 12:23am]


Do you wonder if your mind separates from your body if it is not in the present?

If your thinking about africa, or a future life, or what you're going to do next weekend - are you technically still in your body?

And if not, is that dangerous?


[Sunday December 09, 2007 @ 10:53am]

[appologies if it's not allowed, and i'll delete if necessary]

An outlet for release- just created/please join:)


Need based Theory [Wednesday November 28, 2007 @ 9:06pm]

My cousin philosopher has a theory on relationships. She said only when you REALLY need someone will the Universe conspire to give you someone. And it's disastrous when you try to INSIST that you need one when you really don't.

WE, she said, don't need anything or anyone right now and that's why we don't have a boyfriend.

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An angel's death [Wednesday November 07, 2007 @ 6:38pm]

"She's gone."

When I got this message from Pau last night, I don't know what to say. I couldn't believe it. Okay, I've known for quite some time that her 22months old niece Isa has a stage4 ovarian cancer, BUT I've always believe that Isa will live, that God will do miracles, and Isa will grow up to be a young lady someday.Part of me was crying for Pau, for Isa's mother, Pam. Part of me was asking God how He could have let it happen. Isa's too young to die. It's not fair.

But then I realize, who are we to complain? Life is just something lent to us. Anything borrowed was supposed to be returned to the owner whenever he wants it back. We just have to trust God has reasons for taking it back the moment He chooses to. We have to believe that it was part of a bigger plan and that He's not just having some kind of "power play."

Of course, it's easier said than done. I'm not the one who has lost a child.

I'm grieving for Pam. I don't know what I'll do if I lost Vincent. I'd probably want to die.

burn [Tuesday August 28, 2007 @ 9:21am]

The thing I miss about pain is it makes me burn. I remember dancing to its flames.

[Thursday March 22, 2007 @ 1:19pm]


Just a note to say that in future, my topics that may have been posted here will all be posted in the public section of my livejournal account.  I see no point in reposting some of the better ones here, as they have already been thought over and responded to by people in my livejournal account.  It'd be both stupid and consuming to refer back and forth to opinions posted there and here when debating viewpoints and beliefs, especially when the conversation can be held at the one location.

Will be more then happy to continue reading topics written by others here, and possibly posting opinions.
-Dakura Deoman-


The Price of Knowledge [Thursday March 15, 2007 @ 8:14pm]


As I see no point in making this post unnecessarily long, lets skip the quoting and get directly to acknowledging the source.


Do you agree with the viewpoints expressed by the writer of this newspaper article - should online academic journals, experiments and literature be free to access by the general public?

There are at least 2 aspects which come into debate.
1. Outside the internet, journals and academic texts not altered by media cost money to purchase as they are books. Why does online become different?
2. In many countries, it is a law-abiding, tax paying citizen’s right to have free access to public libraries, as is it within the rights of a university student to access their universities library without cost. Why then do the rights of free public knowledge not extend online?

Discuss. My thoughts shall be posted later.
-Dakura Deoman-

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The Egg [Sunday February 11, 2007 @ 5:33pm]


Most of the topics found and written will be in the public section of my livejournal, as there is no desire to flood this community.  This is one of them.

I would give credit to the writer of this analogy, however the place where it was read failed to do so (rather they briefly mentioned that it was not their own work, much like I am doing right now).  While the author will continue to remain unknown, their artistic choice of words will most certainly be appreciated by what one hopes is more then just myself.  The progression is facinating.



The Egg

I hid an egg. I hid it in the back of the closet. I hid there and I forgot about for a while.

It's starting to smell a little bit in here. I'm pretty sure it is that egg I hid away. I meant to throw it away but I just haven't done it yet. The air freshener I plugged in seems to be doing a pretty good job of disguising the smell. It's only really bad when you first walk into the house and after you've been here for a while you can't really notice the smell anymore. It isn't really that big of a thing anyway.

It's getting worse. Winters here and I can't open the windows anymore. I'm afraid to have anyone come over and visit because they might smell it too. They might smell it too and then I will have to explain that I hid the egg and I didn't mean to leave it there but I can't throw it way. I'm afraid to look in there. What if it has things growing on it? What if it is all gross and makes me sick? What happens if I open the door and the odor gets worse and nothing will make it go away?

Summers here. I don't spend a lot of time inside anymore. I thought about having a professional come in and remove the egg but what if he starts to ask questions? What if he knows the people I know and they find out I've been hiding this egg inside for so long? What will they think of me? What will they say? It seems such a simple thing. Open a door and take it out and throw it away but I can't. I just can't because I know what's in there. It's horrible and if I open it up that means I may have to touch it. I can't. I just can't.

I know what I will do. I'll just leave. I'll just move someplace else. Let someone else deal with the smell. They can figure it out.

I can't leave. I can't. The smell is everywhere now. I want to leave but I'm afraid that I no one will want this place. Who would want a place that is rotten? Who would want a place that is tainted by this smell? Besides if I try to leave then I'll have to offer explanations. It's better if I just stay here and live with the smell. I'm the only one who has to know. I'm the only one who has to live with it.

I sit here. I don't know what to do anymore. The tears run unchecked down my face. I look back at the closet. I've tried so many times to bring myself to just open that door but every time I do I get so afraid of what I will find. I'm so alone. I know no one will understand how and why the egg got there. I'm not even sure if I know why it is there anymore.

All I know is that every part of my life is affected by its presence. I don't have friends anymore because I ran out of excuses as to why I wouldn't let them in. I get up every day and as much as I try to pretend that things are okay I know they aren't. Nothing I do gets rid of the smell, even with the windows open and all the things I've used to cover it up it is still there. It overpowers me.

Me against the egg.

I stand up slowly. I walk to the door. I put my hand on the knob. Can I turn the knob and face the egg? My hand is there and I look down and I see the knob start to slowly turn.

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Song Lyrics [Sunday January 14, 2007 @ 3:44pm]


Was listening to a band which a friend seems to have strong interests in, one of the songs having rather thought-inspiring lyrics.  Perhaps this community may have some interesting ideas in response to the questions asked.

"Few creatures of the night have captured our imagination like vampires.
What explains our enduring fascination with vampires?
What is it about the vampire myth that explains our interest?
Is it the overtone of sexual lust, power and control?
Or is it a fascination with the immortality of the undead?
And what dark and hidden parts of our psyche are aroused and captivated
by the legends of the undead?"

Song is "Vampires" by a band called "Godsmack".  I can upload it to megaupload.com if people wish to hear the full song for themselves, though there isn't really much to it.

Any thoughts or opinions people wish to share?

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Being truly different vs. being normal [Wednesday January 10, 2007 @ 3:00pm]


These are my own words and thoughts used in response to somebody's livejournal account (a member of this group actually).  As such, there is no credit which needs to be given.


As great as the idea of being different may seem, we live in a world where one cannot afford to be, and especially show they are, truly different. As passionate and caring as some are about telling others to not be like the normality, the moment they see true differences, it cannot be accepted.

"Don't be sheep!" Yes, simply not possess ones morality of right and wrong, and see how quickly they find themselves locked up. Or on a shrinks couch for sociopathic behavior (Antisocial Personality Disorder). Or consuming a rediculous amount of pills due to claims of 'chemical imbalance'. Poked and prodded, mind analyzed and torn. Why? Because you're different.

But that's more to the extremes. Learning to see the middle, to see what is the accepted normality of differences, is accepted by most. May lead to claims of being 'weird' and 'abnormal', but at least it's accepted without adding too many complications to ones life. The world simply isn't ready to see a pink crow.

I am curious to hear member's thoughts on this short passage of text.  Do people beg to differ?

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Im a n00b [Tuesday January 02, 2007 @ 11:35pm]

[ mood | awake ]

Hello i'm a n00b to this whole bit. I write alot about my mind. I over analyze everything. I figured I would join a comminuty where everyone over analyzes things as well :). I hope you enjoy some of my entries on my page.

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Emotional Purity [Friday December 29, 2006 @ 1:04am]


As these few paragraphs of musings are my own, there is no references which need to be cited or credit that needs to be given where it is due.  As such, I have full rights to edit and use my own work however I may see fit, such as posting here for the benefit of this livejournal community.

I shall copy/paste my words here, as they were worded perfectly fine the first time written.

There are many directions this topic could go in, but for now lets leave that for the posters to influence, dictate and decide.  On a completely unrelated note, I find it amusing that my description reguarding the labelling of a dog found itself a mention on the TV show 'House' (a show which unkickablekitty appears to be fond of) a few weeks after this was originally typed.
-Dakura Deoman-

Multiple Intelligences [Wednesday December 27, 2006 @ 1:48pm]

[ mood | bouncy ]

We discussed the multiple intelligences in art class a few weeks back (very cool teacher, loves deep thought), and I went home and searched for them on the internet. Found some more in-depth definitions of them, so here they are (I'd cite where I got these from, but I forgot to copy/paste the site):

Definitions of the Multiple IntelligencesCollapse )

Which are you? Usually a person has a main one or two... I have a main three (though the first two are ties for first place and the third is more of a second place thing). How do you know you are that way? Do you think people are more likely to be drawn to a person of the same intelligence?

What I AmCollapse )

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Maturity [Thursday December 28, 2006 @ 2:47am]


A topic which I originally posted on a nice little forum quite some time ago, something which perhaps will be enjoyed here.  The topic basically asks exactly what is maturity, and what does it really mean when we say a person is mature.  How about I copy/paste the post I made here, see what members of this community have to say then go from there.

Thoughts anybody?  Oh, and nice community.
-Dakura Deoman-
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[Friday November 24, 2006 @ 5:38pm]

i found this picture on the internet...any thoughts?
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Rose [Wednesday November 15, 2006 @ 3:21pm]

I see before me a thing. It defies my sense of reason. I cannot describe why I am so drawn to it. I can feel the thought of it driving into me. I know of it's light. To see such a thing compromised becomes my nightmare. I cannot fathom the crushing blows. Such wounds dropped out of a hat. Push comes to pull comes to step around, this self destructive dance. I know the sand. I have sunk myself into those realms. Self concealment to defy your master, hide the strings and cut them when he's not looking. This can be a tricky deal. Some strings are not meant to be cut, and some should have never been tied to begin with. Control is the option, but not the benefit. If you decide that this is to be this way, by chance, by choice, or by imposition. How ever this action came to face you. Have you remained yourself in this experience? Have you moved according to your design, or some other forces design? We all share the likeness of our desires. But who and how many people actually share their true desires. Rejection is the mother of all opiates. I won't because I think I'll fail. At any rate these ideas consume us and lead to doubt and a closed circuit for experience. Circlular thinking leads to one kind of track. In the end do we have a true reflection of ourselves in the mirrors we choose to surround ourselves with. Be they other people, trophies on the wall, or actual mirrors. So how many people actually know anything about themselves. Spend time throwing rocks in a house of mirrored cards. Shatters to the ground in a pool of effort wasted. Can we defy logic and create something out of such rubble. Is anything worth saving to gain a broken glimpse of what once was? I believe nothing about this house of mirrors. You can only find reflection in the radiating points that are cast out beyond you. People's views of you become critical, but not integral. I accept all inbound communication. My filter is stuck wide open because I would not be comfortable with that self imposed ignorance. Killing my dreams slowly. I will face everything here. Then you can become part of them.
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[Wednesday November 15, 2006 @ 2:55pm]

since htis community's got a change at revival, I'll post again.

what are you opinions on these people that watch those videos of animals fighting to the death (cockfights, especially)

Personally, this bothers me a great deal. and having the kids next to me talk about it and WATCH the videso on youtube is just worse.

Why doesn't youtube get rid of these videos? Or better yet, why doesn't anyone do anything in my school to stop these video's from being watched.

We've got an ultra high security system on our computers with a large amount of filter options.

Seriously, what joy do they get in watching animals fight?

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friends [Thursday October 26, 2006 @ 4:57pm]

When is the point when someone goes from a best friend, to a good friend, to a friend, to an acquaintance, to a stranger? Likewise the opposite. How does someone go from a stranger to a best friend? How can we tell?
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[Wednesday October 25, 2006 @ 9:52pm]

Know nothing of the future, knowing more every year some distain for a stale past, longing to forget and remember, busy and off balance waiting to see again beyond the lousy script of my most recent years. The value of days is strange to consider. Have I really chosen to search daily for good things rather than invest in them for the sake of my future salvation

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