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I'm out of here in about 8 hours, on the way to Canada to see my love =) I'm so excited, so nervous, and all jittery. This will be our first meeting as well. Just a quick question, I'll be connecting in Chicago and it'll be the same airline and everything, just switching planes to go to Edmonton. Will I need to go check in and go through security and everything again? I'm just so nervous about the whole airport thing, getting to my flight, knowing where I have to go, etc. If anyone has tips let me know. Thanks =)

xposted. I'll check when I wake up in a few hours :D
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mmm I'm so excited!!

Well my boyfriend is going to be coming to my prom, and I've been really worried because prom is... well... expensive. Infact, it's VERY expensive and I've been ultra worried about affording it. I want to get my hair done, get a nice limo, pretty jewelry and shoes and a handbag... and oh ya... a DRESS. I'm a poor kid with less than $200, haha... well... my aunt emailed me last night... :)

"Subject: Hi Sarah, prom question for you

do you know if you are going? if so, do you know where you want to buy a dress? if so, can we buy it for you? Let me know how much and where and we will get a gift certificate for you........ok? (oh yeah and let me know where you want to buy shoes too)
sam & rich"

She wants to help me out because her senior year, my sister went to France and my aunt helped my family pay for it. I'm not going there because none of my friends can afford it so she wants to do something for me :) I'm so psycheddd


Sorry for being so out of it with the community lately. As you can tell from my own livejournal, I've been way out of the loop. I hate making excuses, but school is stressing me out big time so I do put a lot of the blame on that. Not only that, but the school has blocked livejournal and blogging sites this year, so I can't access it during downtime during the school day either. Sucks.

I do want to say a big welcome to all the new members, and a thanks to all the old ones who are posting like mad. I promise to be more active, and I'll read all of the new entries tomorrow (as I'm way too tired to do so now).

On the plus side, I do have some good news. My boyfriend's family should be moving to New York sometime in the beginning of April. They're looking at a really really really nice house right now (seriously, it's absolutely gorgeous) and plan to put a down payment on it as soon as possible. I, for one, am PSYCHED. There'll still be a distance, but rather than a 6 hour plane ride it'll be a 4 hour car ride! He'll be about 45 minutes from the city (which neither of us have ever seen) as well, which is definitely cool. I'm so excited to be able to see him again soon!!!! It kills me not having seen him since July! As long as the move goes well and they adjust, I plan to see if I can spend my April vacation (spring break, the week of the 16th) with him and his family. Sweeeet. It's going to be great going down there, too, because there are a few new ways to travel aside from plane, ha! There's apparently a bus that can bring me to New York City, there are ferries between Connecticut and Long Island, or I can have my mom or dad drive me half way there. Regardless, I'm STOKED.

Good luck to all of you meeting soon! Trust me, it's going to be a BLAST. You may be nervous now, but there's definitely no need. Make sure to tell us how it goes!!

And if you can, I'd appreciate it if you took the time to promote the community (please, only promote in the communities that ALLOW it... if you aren't sure if they do, it's best not to promote there :)). Our community is awesome and it grows pretty steadily, but I know there are a ton of other kids in our same situations who'd probably like a place to vent about it. We're the fastest growing online love community, at least to my knowledge and what I've seen (though I don't really use the others anymore, so I could be wrong...), so we deserve the most and the best members, for sure ;)

I'll try to get some nice new banners and things up soon to make up for my absense :-p
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I'm sorry I keep buggin you guys, but I have a bit of a problem. I've been searching around all day, and it seems even in Canada you need to be 21+ to rent a car. Does anyone know of any car rental place in Edmonton, Alberta that will allow me to rent a car at the age of 19? ): I don't know what I'm going to do otherwise if I can't rent a car. Thanks everyone.

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Well I finally got my passport confirmation and they said that I should be good to go by March 11th :D I'm so excited. I'm leaving on the 16th and will be returning on the 23rd. This will be our first meeting, and this will be the first LDR where I've actually met the person. I couldn't be more happy.. and at the same time, more upset/scared. My parent and my god mother are really against it. My nana practically told me she was going to disown me if I went through with this. Did anyone else have this sort of problem? If so, how did you deal with it? And also.. okay, as I've previously mentioned, I'm a big girl. My nana was kind of going off on me and she pretty much told me my fat ass isn't going to be able to sit in an airplane seat. Does anyone have more information about that, and any other sort of traveling tips? This is my first time on a plane. Thanks. :D

x-posted. Like always.
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Paranoia Problem

Hey guys.

My girlfriend Rachael and I have been dating each other for nearly 2 years and we have not met yet. (We are both teenagers). I love her very much, I've never felt so strongly about anyone, and I plan to meet her on her eighteenth birthday.

But there's a problem now, we used to talk on the phone a lot, or play games together or talk online. We made due with the distance and we never grew tired of talking to each other.. But now I'm afraid maybe she's found someone else..

She's been coming home very late with poor explanations, and even on weekdays she'll say she wants to go nap, so every day she's gone for about 5 hours after school "napping".

I don't want to say she's the one to cheat, but she did cheat on her ex boyfriend with me until she finally left him.

I hate keeping tabs on her, so I'm not going so far as to call her often asking where she is, or to keep starting fights with her.. But I get so scared that she's doing something behind my back that the love that's in my heart for her is being gradually replaced with anger and pain.

I've tried to talk to her about it, but she gets very angry and says that I must not trust her or think that she loves me at all and it hurts her feelings.

I'm just not sure what I should do.
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A bit worried.

I went and applied for my passport last Friday. I paid for expedited services right then and there, my passport fee coming to $127, not including paying the county $40. I called the passport agency last night (on hold for an hour, mind you) and they said they're really backed up, and I can't view my status of my passport because I'm not in their system yet. I'm due to leave March 16th, but haven't gotten the ticket yet. Now, if I paid for expedited (the lady said 2-3 weeks at the agency) at the county clerk agency, does that mean they put expedited on the envelope because they knew I was traveling in the near future, or should that be a question for the clerks office itself? I'm getting scared because I was going to buy the ticket tomorrow and don't really want to postpone my trip, but I don't know if I have to. The man on the phone said that if they put expedited on the envelope I should get it in time. I just don't know if I should be worrying or not. Expect more posts from me in the near future... this will be my first time on a plane. I can't wait to meet him. :)

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I got to talk to Mor this morning!! It was very exciting. He is done with his surgeries and is going to live. Hurrah! Besides being in mass amounts of pain, he is doing well. He will be able to go home from the hospital and recover in a week or so. They say it will be a 6 month recovery process. And then back to being a shooting instructor in the army. Hopefully they won't pull him out to Gaza again because then that would equal Joy being a big mess.

Mysteries of the Sexes

Reversing the Bad-Relationships Curse

We all know that dating can be a lot like an American Idol audition. Maybe it goes horribly, maybe you're nervous, maybe you crack under pressure, maybe you wear the wrong outfit, or maybe you nail the audition with perfect conversation and a one-of-a-kind style. Whatever the case, there's a lot of pressure in any early-on period of a relationship because the judges-though they may not say anything to your face-are just as harsh as our three household favorites. So if you continually find yourself being sent home rather than being sent on, chances are that either it simply wasn't meant to be or that you're not projecting your best possible side for your intended audience. Here are some clues into what may be going wrong, so you can change your luck -- and make sure you have enough time to really prove yourself. The keys to the masterful date:

The Right Level of Confidence

We all know one of the biggest turn-offs that happen during a first date (besides bad breath, bad manners, and bad shoes): Cockiness. If a date struts around like a peacock flashing his long list of accomplishments, then he comes off as either trying way too hard or having a planet-sized head. But because of that risk, many people have swung in the opposite direction-playing the low-key, laid-back, just-hanging card to make sure they don't come off as cocky as a Cowell. That aw-shucks attitude, however, can be as unappealing as the flex-biceps one, because people don't want partners who have the backbone of a worm. They want people who are able to find the middle ground of being secure with themselves-without having to sell themselves.

A Smart Outlook on the Future

At first, some of the traits that you're revealing to potential partners may have a sexy side-whether it's the guy who's into daredevil motor sports or a woman who's unafraid to show her mettle with tequila. But consciously or not, as time goes on, we tend to judge potential mates not always by what their image means right now-but what it will mean down the line when they're parents. Men and women not only judge each other on kissing quality, sense of humor, and general chemistry, but also how their personality will play out when they're a mother or a father. Not that you should be tiptoeing around who you are, but you have to be aware that you're not only being evaluated in the here and now, but also the then and later.

A Sense of Control

There can be something kind of sexy about the slightly disheveled, crazy-busy person who has a pile of papers three-feet high at his desk, or who has the ability to juggle her Blackberry, laptop, and other electronic gadgets 24-7. They're projecting the image of importance, which can come off as very appealing. But after a while, the frazzled, everything-all-over the-place persona is simply code for: You ain't got your stuff together. And at some point-maybe early, maybe later-it's going to be something that translates into: You're not right for me.

A Priority on Romance

If you're unlucky in love (and not happy about it), then it's likely you've tried just about every place to meet people to date-at bars, in bookstores, in coffee shops, online, at church, on the highway, wherever. Sometimes, those chance meetings will work out wonderfully, but more times than not, they'll have about the same success rate as Britney's PR person. The best path to romantic success: Friends. In fact, according to one survey, 78 percent of women feel that their friends are the best source to help find a significant other. So that means if you're a guy with few female friends or a woman with few guy friends, your mission ought to be networking and developing more social circles with friends, acquaintances, and co-workers of the opposite sex. The domino effect-without having to try so hard-can eventually lead you to the place you want: The perfect person.

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